I hate being poor :-(
Ok...time for a little ventage. First of all, let me say that I cannot wait until i have a full time job instead of being a poor college student working 15 hours a week and depending on my parents to help support me. My credit card bill is astronomical, to me at least. Yes, $1100 may not be that much but when you make $300 per month and need to pay utilities and buy groceries on that, it doesn't go far. I've made a deal with myself to not use my credit card except in dire emergencies. I just can't do it anymore. I have to start looking at the big picture which is this: I don't make enough money to live the lifestyle I want and have been living. My parents are not doing well financially at all and cannot help me as much. My dad's business is doing poorly and he has already let 2 guys go off the payroll cuz they can't afford them anymore. He is still paying off his loan to pay for the company AND is taking a paycut this year. I need to start thinking about them and take care of more things on my own. I need to stop looking at my credit card as "money i'll have later" cuz it never happens. No more eating out. No more shopping sprees. No more charging tickets for shows. JUST NO MORE. I can't sleep right now because I am so worried about my financial situation. Yes, I have money from Christmas, but that has to last me basically until the end of January when I get paid from working at school. This means that just around $200 has to last me a month and a half. I really don't have much faith that it will Tomorrow, I have to take back a movie I treated myself to cuz it turns out I don't have the money for it and I also don't have the money to order what I need for James' Christmas present cuz no store has what I need right now. I also won't be able to get Jori a going away present like I had wanted to before she leaves for France on the 10th and I won't see her for her 21st b'day in March and she won't be back until June. I just want to cry right now.