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*~::Please excuse my lack of writing skills tonight...::~*
Well, in a nutshell, today sucked. Woke up for chapter at 11am. Came back and found a missed call from my godson Markie. He called me from his cell phone, yes he's 8 and has a cell phone but it's only used in the house to call family. Anyway, I called him back and he was like "Court when are you coming home to see me I miss you." Brought a fucking tear to my eye. I told him to mark down April 14th and count down the days cuz that's when I'll be home next and we'll go do something. He was so happy and told me he loves me :-( i miss my family. I feel so bad not going to see them over spring break. This is the first break I didn't do so and I feel so guilty.
Also, I was texting James during Greek Sing and he was saying how beautiful of a day it is outside and how clear it was. Well, he was driving downtown to go to Darin's and took this picture
of the skyline and sent it to me.which just made me miss home even more. I want to go downtown w/ James and walk around and do fun things and not worry about anything and meet up w/ Shaun one night and all kinds of stuff. But no. I have to be in hell. Between Greek Week shit and school, life hurts pretty badly right now.
On top of it all, Ruby's transmission has finally gone out after our roadtrip to starbuck's last night. This means that more than likely I am not going to be able to sneak home on April 7th for the night to see James' show. I have never missed one of his shows. :-( I don't want to ask anyone to borrow their car cuz that's a lot of driving to do in one day and put on someone's car. I just want to cry right now. We can't afford a new transmission or a new car. We all need something to drive, so I don't know what we're going to do. Basically, I feel like I'm being told I'm not supposed to go home for James' show and this is my sign and that I'm being punished for cheating during Lent and probably for some other things as well.
I just don't know what to do anymore...