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...would rather have a fan club than to have friends.
friends are a burden when you don't want to offer anything of yourself. it's easier i quess, to only think of yourself. that's fine and good, but doesn't mesh well with me unfortunately. i would like to be more tolerant, but have this nagging bitterness towards heartless, ignorant people. maybe i'm a bit envious too. i wish it was that easy for me not to have feelings.
well, life is too short to deal with that shit. i don't need someone in my life that makes me feel bad.
her cloak of conformity needs to be ripped with the mask off her face as well.
i haven't talked to jeff in quite a few months. aaron told me he got in an accident so i called his house to see how he is, he wasn't home. with his dad. aaron wouldn't be so happy that i had called him, but i don't hate jeff because everyone else does. although i have my own reasons not to like him.
i stopped seeing the doctor. can you tell? brandon can tell that i almost felt hopeful that i could get help. i'm fine though, plus a snide remark or a glare, but at least i'm being myself.
friends are a burden when you don't want to offer anything of yourself. it's easier i quess, to only think of yourself. that's fine and good, but doesn't mesh well with me unfortunately. i would like to be more tolerant, but have this nagging bitterness towards heartless, ignorant people. maybe i'm a bit envious too. i wish it was that easy for me not to have feelings.
well, life is too short to deal with that shit. i don't need someone in my life that makes me feel bad.
her cloak of conformity needs to be ripped with the mask off her face as well.
i haven't talked to jeff in quite a few months. aaron told me he got in an accident so i called his house to see how he is, he wasn't home. with his dad. aaron wouldn't be so happy that i had called him, but i don't hate jeff because everyone else does. although i have my own reasons not to like him.
i stopped seeing the doctor. can you tell? brandon can tell that i almost felt hopeful that i could get help. i'm fine though, plus a snide remark or a glare, but at least i'm being myself.