fukt
i really need to get ahold of someone's digital camera so that i can change that picture. it's really old now. i'm not sure if it's a really good time to be updating cuz everything's not right in my head at this time. it hasn't been all week. my period ending usually calms me done and puts things back in to perspective but not this time. things are wrong. i'm feeling depressed. a problem i have is that i don't let the past go and i know this, but i don't know how to train myself to stop. it really hit me at the show we went to last night. i felt so alone. i am alone. brandon understands to a point and than after that, it's just me, by myself, completely alone. i hate to say it or even think it, but even with brandon there i felt so isolated. when i feel isolated i think about the worst times.