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i feel so troubled I can't sleep...again. I gotta go to the Doc tomorrow even if I feel a whole lot better...but i don't wanna go to work. Lazy bumness.
Whats troubling me is that I'm timid about the purpose with my life. There is a huge question mark that keeps afloat on top of my head. I don't know for sure what direction I should go in life. For certainly I do still wanna go to college...just not here.
stupid deliberate mind...so fucking indecisive...apart of me still wants to go for music biz...but that biz is so dirty from people who i know that work in it and its very competetive...what job isn't. I wanna move to northern cali with my sis...but no schools interest me there. Honestly its too perplex where things will lie ahead in the future...BUT OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH to choose the right fucking path...and thats 9574649848465456987 chance of it not being right cause lots of times you only get 1 chance and if ya fuck it up then your in deep shit...i don't want that.
i already fucked up here...I don't see myself going anywhere if i stay in jacksonville. I don't really wanna be a nobody. who does? I wanna be successful and to do that ya gotta keep movin that ass!!!!!
I don't know what to do?!?!!?
Whats troubling me is that I'm timid about the purpose with my life. There is a huge question mark that keeps afloat on top of my head. I don't know for sure what direction I should go in life. For certainly I do still wanna go to college...just not here.
stupid deliberate mind...so fucking indecisive...apart of me still wants to go for music biz...but that biz is so dirty from people who i know that work in it and its very competetive...what job isn't. I wanna move to northern cali with my sis...but no schools interest me there. Honestly its too perplex where things will lie ahead in the future...BUT OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH to choose the right fucking path...and thats 9574649848465456987 chance of it not being right cause lots of times you only get 1 chance and if ya fuck it up then your in deep shit...i don't want that.
i already fucked up here...I don't see myself going anywhere if i stay in jacksonville. I don't really wanna be a nobody. who does? I wanna be successful and to do that ya gotta keep movin that ass!!!!!
I don't know what to do?!?!!?