bored
Today hasnt been excited i woke up at 10:00
listened to music,watched tv, went on the computer (same old)
i watched some kid show named "Brum" and its about this little car in england that drives around and saves the day. lol
Then i put Fuse on and watched
7th Ave. Drop with The ALL AMERICAN REJECTS<3
which was awesome!
I love them!!!
AND THERE NEW CD IS AMAZING!!!
After that i watched...
100% Blink-182
which was really funny and i loved it and i love Blink so its all good:-)
then i went up stairs and took a shower
AS YOU CAN SEE I HAD A REALLY BORING DAY!!!
And i agree with what the Wonderful Ally said in her livejournal.
It really doesnt feel like summer. at all
I mean even on the last day of school it didnt even feel like it was really the last day.
even now it feels like the first day of highschool was yesterday.
This is really werid and it's been bothering me lately.
I remenbered the book we read in Mr.Feeneys English class in 8th grade.
"The Thief of Always"
Where they went on and on about "Dont sit and count the days away."
and now after remenbering that I'm really mad at myself.
ALL YEAR LONG ALL I DID WAS SIT IN CLASS and go....
YES 20 Minutes left.
I just wanna go home...
Why cant it be summer
I want it to be summer!
Now it is summer all in a flash.
Its like last year lasted a week.
and the sad part is im never gunna live it again.
and i wasted it.
I should have stoped and tried to enjoy a little bit even if it was school.
I shouldnt have wasted all those days just wanting to go to the furture.
I've lost them and im never gunna get them back.
and im never gunna get another chance to live themm.
ANd even this summer all of july i have been counting down the days till my birthday.
Now...4 days away from my birthday.
I relize how stupid i was.
i should have made the most of my very last days of being 14.
i should have tried to enjjoy it...
in 4 days im gunna lose my only opertunity at being 14.
Once im 15.
I can NEVER be 14 agian.
which is upsetting if you think about it.
so the next couple of days and the rest of my life.
I'm gunna try NOT to think to much about the furture.
I'm not gunna sit there and wish that my day was over so that i could go home, or that i can go to sleep.
I'm gunna try to enjoy every mintue of it.
And im not going to let everything fly right past me anymore.
because no one knows what could happen tomorrow.
and i just wanna feel like i did something important in life.
i dont wanna be just another person walking around on the street.
I dont wanna Die and Be FORGOTTEN.
I want people 900years from now to know that i once walked this earth.
I wanna make a difference for the better somewhere.
I wanna be remenber for doing something wonderful
or my accomphlishments.
Not for doing something stuipid or bad, i dont wanna be remenbered for something horriable like murdering someone (WHICH I HAVE NEVER DONE AND NEVER WIILL DO)
I just wanna feel like my life wasnt a waste.
and that i actually took advantage of my time down here.
I'm not sure if anyone else has relized this...
But out lives are only like 1 second in the earths time.
Once were gone WERE not coming back.
we will never be able to go to the beach, go to concert,listen to music, or even walk around on the earth again.
No one knows where we will go.
Or what will be in store for us when we get there,
All we do know is
that we only have one chance
no more or less...
so...
lets make the best of it
Lets not dwell on stuipid little agruments, or stupid little problems.
lets long to Move on and enjoy this ONCE AND A LIFETIME experience.
And it's werid to think that one day...
time will just keep moving on without me...
without all of us.
THAT INCLUDES YOU THE PERSON READING THIS
AND i dont wanna be FORGOTTEN.
And im going to do everything in my power to not be forgotten
once my time has run out.
thank you for reading my rant.
I LOVE YOU ALL<3