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Almost five years fly by and I'm posting again?
Thank you Ivanna for putting the idea of livejournal back in to my head.
Though reading through past entries has been incredibly embarrassing, awkward, and just plain depressing, I feel it was necessary to realize how far I have come from that lonely and depressed girl that I use to be.
Close friends have come and gone, but I feel that was all part of the bigger plan in my life.
I often wonder who I would have become if I would have never left Arizona.
However, it is all just pure curiousity, no regrets here.
From being here in Texas, I have met some wonderful people and have experienced friendship like I never thought possible. I have also experiences a true love that I never believed would happen, but it did. A wonderful two and a half year relationship with someone who I would have never expected to mesh with has taught me a great deal. Not only about myself, but also about loving, letting yourself get wrapped up completely in someone else, and just living. I walk away from that whirlwind romance a better person, no doubt about that.
I am moving into my first apartment on Monday. It will be the first time away from home, my parents, my brother. I am moving in with one of my best friends, Cole. He is a wonderful person who I love dearly. I am hoping to learn from him for he is such a go-getter and one who lives everyday as if it was his last. I am hoping to becoming more like him in that sense. I am too safe though I do not think that is bad in any sense. I just know I am missing out on life. I am missing out on my youth, which, almost being 21, is quickly flying by.
I want memories of crazy nights, wonderful encounters, random moments, amazing people, life changing experiences. I do not have too many, but this is the year I start.
The trick is finding the balance between youth and responsibility.
I forgot how freeing it was to write down my thoughts and feelings.