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god i feel like total crap tonight and i dont realy know why...well its just a whole lot of things. everything has just gotten so crap. ive been so good for so long and now its all come back. im just such a stupid fat cow. i honestly discust myself. and why ppl wood wanna know me i dont know. i just hate the fact that i have friends out there but it really doesnt feel like it i eamn i have em and thats all. and wat i hate is that i cant tell anyone about this. i mean em doesnt understand this sort of thing.i wish i had corty right now. god i miss that boy so much, and i know that we've become so apart since he moved to sydney and we used to be such good friends, it really sad. and i forgot his 16th birthday, wot sort of friend am i, im just so stupid. god im so selfish honestly i eman there r ppl out there who have so much shit in their lives and im whining about nothing. god i hate this. i thought i had gotten over this and i would stop being all mopey and shit but i knew my high would eventually have to come done, it just came so hard and quick.