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I haven't updated in a little while...and i'm pretty sure no one really cares anyways, but whatever.
So, yeah life's been strange for me lately...i don't know if it'll change once school is over or not...i just hope things all of a sudden get A LOT better once school's done.
I feel like i don't even know people anymore. Like it's already happening. And they don't even seem to mind. :(
I got weird yesterday. I'm sorry Rach (if you even read lj anymore) if having barely any guard girls there made you sad...i didn't mean to contribute to that. I was just....weird....
I'm tired. I'm sick of school. I'm sick of finals. Just one more tho, history...ew. And then going to school will be even more pointless than it already is. Ugh.
And i got ANOTHER phone call from a fricken insurance company...i'm so fuckin' done with this shit. Don't they have enough information by now?
It's kind of amazing how seeing someone accomplish something can make you feel so awesome. Just little things...they make me happy. I'm starting to like that girl more. I won't let *people* "persuade" me to not like someone. She's too judgmental. I wish she wasn't because I need all the friends i can get in guard next year.......but nobody's the same. I love that girl though. She better know it. I'm glad we'll still be together next year, even though the summer will be hard.
And i just talked about 3 different people just then^ (well actually, sort of 4). I'm talented.
I really miss them....so much. It hurts. They're just going along with things, having fun, because as long as they're together...nobody else matters. And i don't know if that's true...but it sure seems like it. They're allowed to be having fun, but i just hope that once i'll have free time to spend with them, they won't already have plans and cliques formed that i won't be "cool enough" for.
I hope summer doesn't make things worse. I'm hoping *they* will still want to see me as much as i want to see them.
Why do i worry so much about EVERYTHING?
Oh yeah. And i still need a job. I'm real paranoid that i'm not gonna find one. I NEED money. I have barely any gas left and it needs to get me through the rest of this week....not gonna happen. Meaning that i need to spend the last of my money plus beg my mom for like 5 or 10 dollars. Ugh, i hate having no money. And i hate how everything revolves around it.
So, now i'm gonna go study for history. What fun.
If you actually read all that, you must be really bored. Or just love me a whole lot. :)
So, yeah life's been strange for me lately...i don't know if it'll change once school is over or not...i just hope things all of a sudden get A LOT better once school's done.
I feel like i don't even know people anymore. Like it's already happening. And they don't even seem to mind. :(
I got weird yesterday. I'm sorry Rach (if you even read lj anymore) if having barely any guard girls there made you sad...i didn't mean to contribute to that. I was just....weird....
I'm tired. I'm sick of school. I'm sick of finals. Just one more tho, history...ew. And then going to school will be even more pointless than it already is. Ugh.
And i got ANOTHER phone call from a fricken insurance company...i'm so fuckin' done with this shit. Don't they have enough information by now?
It's kind of amazing how seeing someone accomplish something can make you feel so awesome. Just little things...they make me happy. I'm starting to like that girl more. I won't let *people* "persuade" me to not like someone. She's too judgmental. I wish she wasn't because I need all the friends i can get in guard next year.......but nobody's the same. I love that girl though. She better know it. I'm glad we'll still be together next year, even though the summer will be hard.
And i just talked about 3 different people just then^ (well actually, sort of 4). I'm talented.
I really miss them....so much. It hurts. They're just going along with things, having fun, because as long as they're together...nobody else matters. And i don't know if that's true...but it sure seems like it. They're allowed to be having fun, but i just hope that once i'll have free time to spend with them, they won't already have plans and cliques formed that i won't be "cool enough" for.
I hope summer doesn't make things worse. I'm hoping *they* will still want to see me as much as i want to see them.
Why do i worry so much about EVERYTHING?
Oh yeah. And i still need a job. I'm real paranoid that i'm not gonna find one. I NEED money. I have barely any gas left and it needs to get me through the rest of this week....not gonna happen. Meaning that i need to spend the last of my money plus beg my mom for like 5 or 10 dollars. Ugh, i hate having no money. And i hate how everything revolves around it.
So, now i'm gonna go study for history. What fun.
If you actually read all that, you must be really bored. Or just love me a whole lot. :)