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hey douchies. so this is whats going on.
tonight was my last track meet at drew university EVER! i dont think you realize how much this means to me. yes its sad. (**and i'v been yearning for petrow's presence since the beginning of the season) but i am so freakin happy. im done with yet another thing involving whs and now im that much closer to gettting out of here!
5 months 3 days.
i won the mark hardy award! (lisha im following in your footsteps. first curly hair, then mascot, now this!)its pretty cool. ever since my edison days i'v been wanting to keep my legacy alive somehow. the reason is because my dad did. his name is all over the place! on placks, in books all about his edison and whs years and i wanted to take after him i guess and do the same. so it all started back in 6th grade. my dad's picture of him and the track team back in god knows what year is on the wall in front of the gym and his name is in the book of emeralds and on a plack in the showcase in the front of the school. i wanted to make him proud of me i guess. so it was then i started making goals. for instance. i wanted to be in the broadway singers. my ass would sing all day long and when it came to those auditions i made sure to kick ass. and i did! i was so happy. then when i got to whs. it was all about concert choir and then chorale and choraleers. and of coarse i cant forget about track. ever since freshman year my goal was to make captain. i worked so hard to make lots of friends and i worked my ass off at practice (almost all the time...u kno just when i wasnt chasing boys or pmsing) and here i am. one of the captains for indoor and outdoor seasons. it makes me so happy to have something that i can leave behind. so when i come back in 20 years i can be like look what i did.
so theres this boy i like. i kno. typical cricri. a new one every week. but i cant help it! im a hormone driven teenage girl. i cant help it if im constantly on the prowl.(eye-rape is a good outlet...**Allie**...ps spencer=def not hot.ev.) anyway. i think i mentioned him b4. the "kind of" crush . well. the beginning stage of "i think i like him" is over. and i def do like him. heres my prob. when your my friend. im fine. yeah im a bit off(as usual) but i can hold a normal conversation and whatnot. but when i liek you. like . you know. like like you. i can never find anything to say. what is rong with me? im such a douchebag! a braindead fool! help me. im lost and hopeless.
-this is kind of why i cant wait for college.
when i went to brown with sashie. it was like i had forever been stuck in this tinyass box, and when i got there, i realized that for once in my life i could do whatever i wanted, whenever i wanted (i mean like. within reason. i wasnt about to go like kill colleen just cause i hate her guts and i want eevryone to see what horrible, mean cold-hearted bitch she really is...no no no.never) it was just such a reality check. so with that. i was so much more open and even though i was reluctant at first......so many boys...so much alcohol.
-wait how was i relating this to my secret lover? i get so off topic sometimes....
um. anyway. i like this kid. and i dont kno how to go on to the next stage because im the biggest loser on the face of this godforsaken planet.
so napolean dynamite? good mov. def a clas.i recommend it to all you complete losers who havent seen it.
if you dont kno what a liger is by now i dont think i can ever talk to you again.
tomorrow! im finally getting the much needed "mental health day" i'v been waiting all year for. iv tryed getting some in b4 but it's never worked out. so! tomorrow is a good one cause ill get some maj studying in for mids, i can wash clothes. (id have nothing to wear to skoo anyway. ) and i get to hangout with the bff! (i dont think he wants to be with me anymore. i think hes moved on to better, cuter (nate! byron!) bffs but i dont care. remember all our good times? we havent had any in like. forever.)tomorrow is a good day to miss skoo too. 1. its a thursday! my fave day of the week. 2. its snowy outside! (perf for movies and hot chocolate) 3. non of my classes are gonna be worth going to anyway
its gonna be a good day. hopefully.
im def ready for this ment. health day. im in dire need. if i didnt have one soon i just kno that i would kill myself sometime in the near future.
soooo yeah. this was a long entry. hope you enjoyed reading.
good night! and pray for a snow day next monday so i dont have to go to county champs and i can spend the day buiding a snow man!
-cricri
ps. DOES ANYONE HAVE THE BEN FOLDS CD-rockin the suburbs- SO I CAN PUT IT ON THE i(POD)!!!!!PLEASE!!! IM DESPRITE.
<3
tonight was my last track meet at drew university EVER! i dont think you realize how much this means to me. yes its sad. (**and i'v been yearning for petrow's presence since the beginning of the season) but i am so freakin happy. im done with yet another thing involving whs and now im that much closer to gettting out of here!
5 months 3 days.
i won the mark hardy award! (lisha im following in your footsteps. first curly hair, then mascot, now this!)its pretty cool. ever since my edison days i'v been wanting to keep my legacy alive somehow. the reason is because my dad did. his name is all over the place! on placks, in books all about his edison and whs years and i wanted to take after him i guess and do the same. so it all started back in 6th grade. my dad's picture of him and the track team back in god knows what year is on the wall in front of the gym and his name is in the book of emeralds and on a plack in the showcase in the front of the school. i wanted to make him proud of me i guess. so it was then i started making goals. for instance. i wanted to be in the broadway singers. my ass would sing all day long and when it came to those auditions i made sure to kick ass. and i did! i was so happy. then when i got to whs. it was all about concert choir and then chorale and choraleers. and of coarse i cant forget about track. ever since freshman year my goal was to make captain. i worked so hard to make lots of friends and i worked my ass off at practice (almost all the time...u kno just when i wasnt chasing boys or pmsing) and here i am. one of the captains for indoor and outdoor seasons. it makes me so happy to have something that i can leave behind. so when i come back in 20 years i can be like look what i did.
so theres this boy i like. i kno. typical cricri. a new one every week. but i cant help it! im a hormone driven teenage girl. i cant help it if im constantly on the prowl.(eye-rape is a good outlet...**Allie**...ps spencer=def not hot.ev.) anyway. i think i mentioned him b4. the "kind of" crush . well. the beginning stage of "i think i like him" is over. and i def do like him. heres my prob. when your my friend. im fine. yeah im a bit off(as usual) but i can hold a normal conversation and whatnot. but when i liek you. like . you know. like like you. i can never find anything to say. what is rong with me? im such a douchebag! a braindead fool! help me. im lost and hopeless.
-this is kind of why i cant wait for college.
when i went to brown with sashie. it was like i had forever been stuck in this tinyass box, and when i got there, i realized that for once in my life i could do whatever i wanted, whenever i wanted (i mean like. within reason. i wasnt about to go like kill colleen just cause i hate her guts and i want eevryone to see what horrible, mean cold-hearted bitch she really is...no no no.never) it was just such a reality check. so with that. i was so much more open and even though i was reluctant at first......so many boys...so much alcohol.
-wait how was i relating this to my secret lover? i get so off topic sometimes....
um. anyway. i like this kid. and i dont kno how to go on to the next stage because im the biggest loser on the face of this godforsaken planet.
so napolean dynamite? good mov. def a clas.i recommend it to all you complete losers who havent seen it.
if you dont kno what a liger is by now i dont think i can ever talk to you again.
tomorrow! im finally getting the much needed "mental health day" i'v been waiting all year for. iv tryed getting some in b4 but it's never worked out. so! tomorrow is a good one cause ill get some maj studying in for mids, i can wash clothes. (id have nothing to wear to skoo anyway. ) and i get to hangout with the bff! (i dont think he wants to be with me anymore. i think hes moved on to better, cuter (nate! byron!) bffs but i dont care. remember all our good times? we havent had any in like. forever.)tomorrow is a good day to miss skoo too. 1. its a thursday! my fave day of the week. 2. its snowy outside! (perf for movies and hot chocolate) 3. non of my classes are gonna be worth going to anyway
its gonna be a good day. hopefully.
im def ready for this ment. health day. im in dire need. if i didnt have one soon i just kno that i would kill myself sometime in the near future.
soooo yeah. this was a long entry. hope you enjoyed reading.
good night! and pray for a snow day next monday so i dont have to go to county champs and i can spend the day buiding a snow man!
-cricri
ps. DOES ANYONE HAVE THE BEN FOLDS CD-rockin the suburbs- SO I CAN PUT IT ON THE i(POD)!!!!!PLEASE!!! IM DESPRITE.
<3