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wow. so yesterday and today were an interesting bunch of hours.
so last night tamara and i decided to go for one of our traditional summer walks where we basically roam aimlessly around town with no particular destination in mind. well we set off and half way down the street we decided to go stop by the memorial pool. (so much for being carefree adn having no destination. i guess being planless is too much of an empty feeling) it was teen night and we guessed that our friend christine would be working there as well as this guy tom whom we have crushed on for about 5 or 6 years. (hes gorgeous, and he saved tam's life in like 7th r 8th grade -he's a LIFEGUARD- IT WAS HIS JOB, she had a cramp. anyway..) we went and we felt liek the HUGEST LOOSERS. i dont kno why but, well we havent been there in like 3 years and i just came back there witht eh same 8th grade mentality (of ooo a party at the pool, hot dj, hot boys, and i get to stay out till 10:30), only, now im a senior in high school and it was ALL middle schoolers. and my little brother and his friends. i couldnt help but be embarassed until we saw christine. (i mean if your older and your there for fun its inevitable that you are to be made fun of by all the youngings-and no one wants that- but since we were there with ppl who worked there. we were boss.) so she saved us. we hung out with her for a bit while she worked and then she asked us wat we were doing for the rest of the night. we were like not much we're just hangin around and she asked us if we wanted to go to this party she had been planning on going to. well tam said yes right away. and as much as i wanted to say yes too, i knew mother wouldnt allow me strolling in any time later than 12 and by the time we would actually be getting to the party it would be around 11. so i hesitated to answer. Tam, of coarse, noticed the delay and started to say "come on cricri be rebelious" and so on and so forth. and im like my mother is not gonna let me go to this party. and christine suggested i tell her im sleeping over her house. (...well my mother has a problem with a lot of things, and sleep overs are one of them. i dont know why exactly. but i mean, she used to let me sleep over ppl's houses all the time and then one day she decided to make this most ridiculous rule of no sleep overs of any kind any where with the exception of family and robin's house. and at the time, of course, as a teenager of the 21st century, i was taken aback -and i still am). but i decided to give it a try anyway. i called and of coarse my personal attempt failed, then tam took the phone and, lemmie tell ya, she can work some fuckin miracles. well, about 35 min later after she and christine had a go at my mother, she gave in and i was finally allowed to sleep over someones house. so then the planning began.
tam and i walked back to my and her houses to gather our sleeping materials. from then christine picked us up from tams's house (she had to halp close the pool up after teen night which took till about 11:15)from tams we went to christines. we dropped ourshit off and stayed at her house and chilled with her mom and brother and cousins till about 12. from then we went out. we drove around for a while calling different ppl. we eventually picked robin and ken(this guy from christines work)up but the ppl we were spose to go with to the party got hung up with a sickly drunk person and things changed. we ended up driving around a bit and goin abck to christines. we got to her house around 2am and we had a few drinks. i got a bit tipsey and when i get to that point i stop.(i dont liek not having control over my body and what im doing) but at that stage i get so random. i tell a lot of different stories at once and laugh a lot and loose my balance. its a weird feeling. around 3:30 or 4 we got into bed adn i was knocked out. christine woke me up around 9 to bring me home cause she had to go to work. it was a very interesting night-transition into morning. it ws fun.
TODAY!! naomi, the coolest girl ever, came and visited me and anthony. we met her at camp this summer and she lives in S. orange. so close. so we made plans for her to come adn visit us today. it was so much fun. anthony and the fam picked me up from my house around 1:30. we went over adn i told him about last night adn then he told me about his "fun" expericances last night.well, im not gonna tell his business to the whole world but i do wanna say that im happy that he is conforable enough to confide in me about whats going on in his life, but sometimes he takes things too far and i get scared for him. i told him how i felt, and i think what he did wasnt very smart and it kinda scared me a bit. but u kno i can only do so much. he's his own person who has to make his own decisions. and of coarse ill be there by him every step of the way but i can only do so much. so ajohn. i love you. (bestfriends)
well any way, naomi come over, we showed her around town, we made dinner together watched a bit of "ace ventura" and then ppl started comming over. anthony's parents had gone to nyc and they said we could invite some ppl over but not too many. we ended up havin more ppl over than expected. as i continuously apologized to anthony for going over board (again) with the inviteing of ppl, we had our selves a good time. the ppl who were there were me anthony naomi robin, matt, tam, leah, lin, jim, ryan, rachel, elisabeth, tara and pam. pam left early for some unknown reason to me (yet im sure she confided in anthony. -i dont like it when ppl dont feel liek they can tell me things- ). and then around 10:15 naomi left. anthony and i sent her off on her way. im so happy she came. i really feel like a finally got some closure from camp. i had missed her so much. you should have seen me. the entire way home from camp, i cryed. the night i came home anthony had a party and the combination of alcohol and unstable emotions is just not kosher because i was histerical the whole night (paul, ajohn's bro, had to drive me home early). it was bad. but today was good. i had a blast. lol.
o. and speaking of paul. i love him. and i hate to admit it. but i do. i love him. but i hate him. WHY DO BOYS DO THIS? well. ok. i love him like i do all my friends. but hes not like all my other friends. like. all my friends are in this one huge group that take up a chunk of my life and then there is paul. separated fromt he rest. his own entity. i dont kno what it is about him but he intregues me. we used to be so close and then he got new friends and now, i dont kno what we are anymore. we arent really close enough anymore to be considered friends (in my opinion), like we dont do the things friends do. we dont hang out anymore, we dont talk on the phone. i mean occationally we chat online, but only petty small talk that i quickly get tired of, but then again we arent total strangers to eachother.i just dont kno what we are. but i love him. "all you need is love is a lie cause we had a love but we still said goodbye. now we're tired, battered fighters" -jm. i feel ya john.
-cricri
so last night tamara and i decided to go for one of our traditional summer walks where we basically roam aimlessly around town with no particular destination in mind. well we set off and half way down the street we decided to go stop by the memorial pool. (so much for being carefree adn having no destination. i guess being planless is too much of an empty feeling) it was teen night and we guessed that our friend christine would be working there as well as this guy tom whom we have crushed on for about 5 or 6 years. (hes gorgeous, and he saved tam's life in like 7th r 8th grade -he's a LIFEGUARD- IT WAS HIS JOB, she had a cramp. anyway..) we went and we felt liek the HUGEST LOOSERS. i dont kno why but, well we havent been there in like 3 years and i just came back there witht eh same 8th grade mentality (of ooo a party at the pool, hot dj, hot boys, and i get to stay out till 10:30), only, now im a senior in high school and it was ALL middle schoolers. and my little brother and his friends. i couldnt help but be embarassed until we saw christine. (i mean if your older and your there for fun its inevitable that you are to be made fun of by all the youngings-and no one wants that- but since we were there with ppl who worked there. we were boss.) so she saved us. we hung out with her for a bit while she worked and then she asked us wat we were doing for the rest of the night. we were like not much we're just hangin around and she asked us if we wanted to go to this party she had been planning on going to. well tam said yes right away. and as much as i wanted to say yes too, i knew mother wouldnt allow me strolling in any time later than 12 and by the time we would actually be getting to the party it would be around 11. so i hesitated to answer. Tam, of coarse, noticed the delay and started to say "come on cricri be rebelious" and so on and so forth. and im like my mother is not gonna let me go to this party. and christine suggested i tell her im sleeping over her house. (...well my mother has a problem with a lot of things, and sleep overs are one of them. i dont know why exactly. but i mean, she used to let me sleep over ppl's houses all the time and then one day she decided to make this most ridiculous rule of no sleep overs of any kind any where with the exception of family and robin's house. and at the time, of course, as a teenager of the 21st century, i was taken aback -and i still am). but i decided to give it a try anyway. i called and of coarse my personal attempt failed, then tam took the phone and, lemmie tell ya, she can work some fuckin miracles. well, about 35 min later after she and christine had a go at my mother, she gave in and i was finally allowed to sleep over someones house. so then the planning began.
tam and i walked back to my and her houses to gather our sleeping materials. from then christine picked us up from tams's house (she had to halp close the pool up after teen night which took till about 11:15)from tams we went to christines. we dropped ourshit off and stayed at her house and chilled with her mom and brother and cousins till about 12. from then we went out. we drove around for a while calling different ppl. we eventually picked robin and ken(this guy from christines work)up but the ppl we were spose to go with to the party got hung up with a sickly drunk person and things changed. we ended up driving around a bit and goin abck to christines. we got to her house around 2am and we had a few drinks. i got a bit tipsey and when i get to that point i stop.(i dont liek not having control over my body and what im doing) but at that stage i get so random. i tell a lot of different stories at once and laugh a lot and loose my balance. its a weird feeling. around 3:30 or 4 we got into bed adn i was knocked out. christine woke me up around 9 to bring me home cause she had to go to work. it was a very interesting night-transition into morning. it ws fun.
TODAY!! naomi, the coolest girl ever, came and visited me and anthony. we met her at camp this summer and she lives in S. orange. so close. so we made plans for her to come adn visit us today. it was so much fun. anthony and the fam picked me up from my house around 1:30. we went over adn i told him about last night adn then he told me about his "fun" expericances last night.well, im not gonna tell his business to the whole world but i do wanna say that im happy that he is conforable enough to confide in me about whats going on in his life, but sometimes he takes things too far and i get scared for him. i told him how i felt, and i think what he did wasnt very smart and it kinda scared me a bit. but u kno i can only do so much. he's his own person who has to make his own decisions. and of coarse ill be there by him every step of the way but i can only do so much. so ajohn. i love you. (bestfriends)
well any way, naomi come over, we showed her around town, we made dinner together watched a bit of "ace ventura" and then ppl started comming over. anthony's parents had gone to nyc and they said we could invite some ppl over but not too many. we ended up havin more ppl over than expected. as i continuously apologized to anthony for going over board (again) with the inviteing of ppl, we had our selves a good time. the ppl who were there were me anthony naomi robin, matt, tam, leah, lin, jim, ryan, rachel, elisabeth, tara and pam. pam left early for some unknown reason to me (yet im sure she confided in anthony. -i dont like it when ppl dont feel liek they can tell me things- ). and then around 10:15 naomi left. anthony and i sent her off on her way. im so happy she came. i really feel like a finally got some closure from camp. i had missed her so much. you should have seen me. the entire way home from camp, i cryed. the night i came home anthony had a party and the combination of alcohol and unstable emotions is just not kosher because i was histerical the whole night (paul, ajohn's bro, had to drive me home early). it was bad. but today was good. i had a blast. lol.
o. and speaking of paul. i love him. and i hate to admit it. but i do. i love him. but i hate him. WHY DO BOYS DO THIS? well. ok. i love him like i do all my friends. but hes not like all my other friends. like. all my friends are in this one huge group that take up a chunk of my life and then there is paul. separated fromt he rest. his own entity. i dont kno what it is about him but he intregues me. we used to be so close and then he got new friends and now, i dont kno what we are anymore. we arent really close enough anymore to be considered friends (in my opinion), like we dont do the things friends do. we dont hang out anymore, we dont talk on the phone. i mean occationally we chat online, but only petty small talk that i quickly get tired of, but then again we arent total strangers to eachother.i just dont kno what we are. but i love him. "all you need is love is a lie cause we had a love but we still said goodbye. now we're tired, battered fighters" -jm. i feel ya john.
-cricri