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ok. i have soo much to say. but i dont kno how to say it. now i kno everyone is sick of hearing about him. but i have no where else to vent. (you dont have to read this u kno). he promised me lunch and a hangout one day this week but his promises are running dry. i am really just waiting for him to leave now, because by now, every time im with him i just get the worst feeling. why be around someone that makes you feel like this? he leaves in 6 days. 6 days and then i plan on starting everything new. hes part of my past and the furture is lookin just fine without him. but as much as i do want to start fresh and new. i want him to stay.i want to start new with him. ugh. this is so stupid. im just gonna stop now. i mean. who needs him? i dont. this is a stupid crush thats gone too far and im sick of it. i mean. no i cant help how i feel. but..i dunno. i guess all i need is time. and as time passes ill feel less and less for him. i guess. if that makes sence. i just want it all to be over. lets close this one door and hopefully another will open (and if one doesnt thats ok ill just be walking aimlessly down an endless hallway infinately filled with closed doors.- that sounds better than this damn circle i keep walking around- )