Jan 14, 2002 22:14
Ok, today totally sucked. I can't handle her at all, she just pisses the fuck outta me. I'm having enough trouble handling my depression without her putting me in nasty moods everytime i calm down. i can't do it anymore! i'm gonna explode, she's gonna get hurt, and frankly, i really don't care anymore cuz she's made me miserable enough to do it. I'm not wishing away everyday of my senior year, just so i won't have to deal with her anymore. That's not fair to me, and it's not fair for her to think we're close friends...it's all a lie and the friendship was never based on anything, i can't do it anymore.
One of my friends is having a really hard time and i hate feeling so helpless. Her wicked good friend Tony has an older sister Tina. She's 21 and was driving back to UNH Sunday when she was in a car accident due to black ice. Her neck snapped and she was killed instantly. She was the oldest of 5 kids, and they're all really close. IT's such a sad story. She was gonna come home this weekend, she even got in a fight with her mom about it because her mom said she didn't need to come home. She decided to come home anyways cuz she missed everyone. Who knew it would be her last time seeing them. It's awfully sad. i talked to my friend for about 2 hours tonight, and we just talked about everything and what it's like to lose a sibling. It's something so horrible and life-altering, no one should have to experience that~ever. I feel so helpless, i wish i could take away all her pain, but i just don't know how to...
~Greels
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVE!!!!!!!!!