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So, getting back to the work schedule has been rather interesting. Last week, I was able to stay in bed all day if I pleased, and let my morning sickness pass. And Jean didn’t mind, because he’d stay right by me.
But now, I have to wake up early, and go between getting dressed and thinking I’m going to vomit. I’m trying to get used to it, but each day it gets a little more worse. I try to keep myself eating small things like fruit and crackers during the morning. It makes me feel the odd one of the bunch, but they’re not eating for multiple people.
Roy’s been in and out of work lately. It has me concerned, due to the fact that he comes in with his thoughts so heavily concentrate on something, and when he leaves from doing a mess of paperwork, his eyes are just as stormy. I think I find myself missing the past now, since I comparing him now to the ‘I-can-do-what-I-want-when-I-want’ Colonel I originally began to work beside. I understand his new rank brings new responsibilities, but... Maybe I’m just thinking of it too much. It takes me a while to get used to change.
But now he’s taking care of his newly found daughter he has and.. I just feel that I need to help him more. Maybe I can work something out with him. Like, I can take a day off and watch his daughter for the whole day. And that way, I can take it easy, too. That actually sounds like a good deal. And that way, Roy can be free to do whatever he pleases for the whole day. Hm. Well, before I start thinking about that, I need to meet his daughter.. And talk to him, also.
I have to read a report over before I fall asleep tonight. I’ve been slacking terribly lately in my work... Things just seem to go over my head lately. Usually when I go off to hand assignments to certain subordinates, and explain what it is, they usually say “Don’t worry General, it will get done.” and then they look over me and like some specimen under a microscope. I know that I’m starting to really look pregnant now, and my uniform fits somewhat awkwardly.. Maybe if there were just more women, everyone would understand better. But I’m looked at like a creature if I’m just walking down the hall. I have to think of a way to fix that, because it’s not going to get any better as the months past.
~Riza
But now, I have to wake up early, and go between getting dressed and thinking I’m going to vomit. I’m trying to get used to it, but each day it gets a little more worse. I try to keep myself eating small things like fruit and crackers during the morning. It makes me feel the odd one of the bunch, but they’re not eating for multiple people.
Roy’s been in and out of work lately. It has me concerned, due to the fact that he comes in with his thoughts so heavily concentrate on something, and when he leaves from doing a mess of paperwork, his eyes are just as stormy. I think I find myself missing the past now, since I comparing him now to the ‘I-can-do-what-I-want-when-I-want’ Colonel I originally began to work beside. I understand his new rank brings new responsibilities, but... Maybe I’m just thinking of it too much. It takes me a while to get used to change.
But now he’s taking care of his newly found daughter he has and.. I just feel that I need to help him more. Maybe I can work something out with him. Like, I can take a day off and watch his daughter for the whole day. And that way, I can take it easy, too. That actually sounds like a good deal. And that way, Roy can be free to do whatever he pleases for the whole day. Hm. Well, before I start thinking about that, I need to meet his daughter.. And talk to him, also.
I have to read a report over before I fall asleep tonight. I’ve been slacking terribly lately in my work... Things just seem to go over my head lately. Usually when I go off to hand assignments to certain subordinates, and explain what it is, they usually say “Don’t worry General, it will get done.” and then they look over me and like some specimen under a microscope. I know that I’m starting to really look pregnant now, and my uniform fits somewhat awkwardly.. Maybe if there were just more women, everyone would understand better. But I’m looked at like a creature if I’m just walking down the hall. I have to think of a way to fix that, because it’s not going to get any better as the months past.
~Riza