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I feel so stupid.
I went in for a conference with my english teacher because we had to meet with her today instead of having class and she was mad first of all because I changed my topic which I always do. Then she said who is going to argue with the topif that you should drink more water? Then she told me I had to redo everything with my original topic and have it done by the same due date. Then I started to cry, I couldnt help it, I tried not to and everything but I just couldnt stop. I felt so stupid because it wasn't like she was yelling at me, I just cried and cried and I couldnt stop. I know she is only doing it because she wants me to get a good grade on the paper and she knows I can do better than the paper I wrote, because it was kinda a shitty paper. But I still spent about a week on that thing and it just makes me sick. I hardly ever EVER cry in front of anyone, and the tears just wouldnt go away and I always feel so stupid when that happens. Its almost like my body doesnt know how to deal with the emotion so it just makes me cry and I cant stop it. I cried for about 2 hours after that too. Just driving and crying, trying to get it out of me and collect my thoughts. I feel bad for her because she had to deal with the thought of making someone cry, it kinda makes me laugh because my tears really wernt because of anything she said, it was just something i couldnt explain and that is the way it came out. It is so weird because I still feel the tears coming and I am completely fine. I dont know why I keep crying about everything today. Maybe I just need to be by myself and think for awhile. Ok I think I will go now. Bye.
I went in for a conference with my english teacher because we had to meet with her today instead of having class and she was mad first of all because I changed my topic which I always do. Then she said who is going to argue with the topif that you should drink more water? Then she told me I had to redo everything with my original topic and have it done by the same due date. Then I started to cry, I couldnt help it, I tried not to and everything but I just couldnt stop. I felt so stupid because it wasn't like she was yelling at me, I just cried and cried and I couldnt stop. I know she is only doing it because she wants me to get a good grade on the paper and she knows I can do better than the paper I wrote, because it was kinda a shitty paper. But I still spent about a week on that thing and it just makes me sick. I hardly ever EVER cry in front of anyone, and the tears just wouldnt go away and I always feel so stupid when that happens. Its almost like my body doesnt know how to deal with the emotion so it just makes me cry and I cant stop it. I cried for about 2 hours after that too. Just driving and crying, trying to get it out of me and collect my thoughts. I feel bad for her because she had to deal with the thought of making someone cry, it kinda makes me laugh because my tears really wernt because of anything she said, it was just something i couldnt explain and that is the way it came out. It is so weird because I still feel the tears coming and I am completely fine. I dont know why I keep crying about everything today. Maybe I just need to be by myself and think for awhile. Ok I think I will go now. Bye.