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I have decided once and for all to lead a completely healthy lifestyle. I will exercise in the morning on non megs days, and on megs days I will workout when I have the time in the day for it. I am going to eat healthy foods, no junk at ALL. Hopefully by my 21st birthday I will be at the place I would like my body to be at.
I still am not interested in any kind of romance or hook ups. I dont know what happened, but my libido seems to have disappeared out of nowhere. Its been almost a year now with no messing around. I think maybe all of my sexual frustration when I was in new york came spilling out when I got back here, and then it all just went away. Maybe it is because my self confidence level has taken a huge leap from way up so high all the way down to my ankles. I think I beat myself up too much and overanalyze things. Well you live and learn.
I need to schedule a day and time to visit Augustana. I really need to study hard and do good in these classes right now, otherwise I wont get into any small school.
I quit dolphin. Thank god. My last day I was so ready to be gone. Its over now. I never have to think about it again, except of course to pick up my paycheck.
I saw Leanne's place in chicago last weekend. I LOVE it and i LOVE chicago, who knew it was so close and had so much beauty? Not me, thats for sure.
I dont know how I am going to live without my family. I am so close to them now, that it will extremely hard for me to leave for college next year. I need to though.
Ok I thought I had a lot to write about, but I guess I dont. Goodnight.
I still am not interested in any kind of romance or hook ups. I dont know what happened, but my libido seems to have disappeared out of nowhere. Its been almost a year now with no messing around. I think maybe all of my sexual frustration when I was in new york came spilling out when I got back here, and then it all just went away. Maybe it is because my self confidence level has taken a huge leap from way up so high all the way down to my ankles. I think I beat myself up too much and overanalyze things. Well you live and learn.
I need to schedule a day and time to visit Augustana. I really need to study hard and do good in these classes right now, otherwise I wont get into any small school.
I quit dolphin. Thank god. My last day I was so ready to be gone. Its over now. I never have to think about it again, except of course to pick up my paycheck.
I saw Leanne's place in chicago last weekend. I LOVE it and i LOVE chicago, who knew it was so close and had so much beauty? Not me, thats for sure.
I dont know how I am going to live without my family. I am so close to them now, that it will extremely hard for me to leave for college next year. I need to though.
Ok I thought I had a lot to write about, but I guess I dont. Goodnight.