yeah...wow
I was looking through myspace and came across pictures from a certain someone in APA. Prom. APA dance shows. High School life at its finest. It feels like...ages since I've been there.
...ages.
And it amazes me how some people have become so stuck in this little tiny world known as high school. I'd forgotten how carefree and frivolous it can be at times. Maybe that's the allure of sticking around for so long.
...a desire to never grow up...
Many people from High School have never grown up. They have never moved beyond their safe little comfort zones. How incredible to know that things will never change...that no matter what happens, tommorrow will just be another day in which you go about the same daily routine, party with the same people (occasionally add a bit more alcohol or pot, depending on your mood) and sleep in your comfortable surroundings...amazing.
It's been a long time since I've felt "safe". A long time since I've been truly comfortable in my surroundings. I havent played it safe in a long, long, time. Playing the odds, living up here in LA has taught me more about myself than I ever wanted to know...made me uncomfortable, made me sad, made me angry, made me miserable, made me laugh, made me smile, made me dance, made me jump for joy...
made me...grow.
I've grown. I'm still small, I'm still being screwed over for parts, I'm still occasionally really frustrated with the world, and I'm sure as hell still somewhat trying to find out who the hell I am in this crazy mixed up LA world...
But damnit, I've grown.
...and man, it feels good. Really good.
...ages.
And it amazes me how some people have become so stuck in this little tiny world known as high school. I'd forgotten how carefree and frivolous it can be at times. Maybe that's the allure of sticking around for so long.
...a desire to never grow up...
Many people from High School have never grown up. They have never moved beyond their safe little comfort zones. How incredible to know that things will never change...that no matter what happens, tommorrow will just be another day in which you go about the same daily routine, party with the same people (occasionally add a bit more alcohol or pot, depending on your mood) and sleep in your comfortable surroundings...amazing.
It's been a long time since I've felt "safe". A long time since I've been truly comfortable in my surroundings. I havent played it safe in a long, long, time. Playing the odds, living up here in LA has taught me more about myself than I ever wanted to know...made me uncomfortable, made me sad, made me angry, made me miserable, made me laugh, made me smile, made me dance, made me jump for joy...
made me...grow.
I've grown. I'm still small, I'm still being screwed over for parts, I'm still occasionally really frustrated with the world, and I'm sure as hell still somewhat trying to find out who the hell I am in this crazy mixed up LA world...
But damnit, I've grown.
...and man, it feels good. Really good.