absurdity
I went to Eisenhower Park today. For 2 hours. And there is absolutely nothing to do there. Except try to cross the stream to get to the other side of the pond, which I could have easily walked around, but I didn't want to. So I was walking around in the woods, by the stream, like some kind of creep with my hood up and smoking a cigarette. There was a family trying to cross where I wanted to go, but I just went and stepped on this log that looked stable...but wasn't. So my right leg went into the water almost up to the knee. Fuck me. So I walked around some more and came back so I could cross and I did, but then my knife fell into the water. But at least I got it back. The other side of the pond was boring, so I had to get back over which was harder because the small tree I used to get to that side had fallen on the other side and was a bit short. So I stepped on something, and my left leg went into the water up to the knee. It was very grand. Then I stayed another hour and a half wandering around doing nothing and I think I smoked half my pack of blacks. All I really wanted was for someone to see me and talk to me and ask me what was wrong.