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Ok, Spencer, I want to not give a shit.
The thing is... its been three days... and I miss him like crazy already.
But I have no clue how he feels. I guess thats kind of the point of taking a break.. was to find out if we would miss one another. But what happens if he doesnt miss me back in the end?? I dont know if I'll be able to handle it..
My goal was to get in the mind-set of not to give a shit what happens... what ever happens, happens.
But its hard... because I love him.
I mean, I know that if we are supposed to be together then we will... but i really dont know what I'm going to do with myself in these 4 months if this is how its going to be.
I pray that you miss me.
I hope to God that we work out in the end.
I dont know if I've ever really felt like this before...
and it would be terrible if you didnt feel the same.
I want you to come back to me the way you did 8 months ago.
You knew that you had to have me back in your life, you told me.
How do you go from being so close to someone to not knowing if they miss when you're not there??
And all in a matter of weeks?
I want to enjoy my time in Cleveland.
I feel like it would be a waste if it was spent worrying about us constantly.