what a waste.
I have come to realize something over the past few days. I have COMPLETELY and TOTALLY wasted 3 YEARS of my life with him. The only thing I am thankful for is my baby. She is amazing, no doubt about it. I can't believe I have been so blind and now that everything is said and done; I can't believe I still care. Essentially our entire relationship was me loving him and him loving someone else. That is the feeling I have gotten looking back on it. I tried to make things work. Make him realize that I was worth loving that I was the best thing for him and an amazing person to be with for the rest of his life, and he realizes that he just wanted his ex, because they have a special connection and she understands him. Well I would understand you and have a connection with you if you wanted to love me and wanted me the way you have always wanted her. It feels ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL to know that I was a back up plan always SECOND BEST. I deserve better, I want better, I want to be successful in my career for myself and my child. I want to find someone to love and be loved completely by. Is that really too much to ask for?