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so mom keeps threatening to leave but does not. and dad is more an ass than usual. they fight every five fucking minutes and who is stuck in the middle > FUCKING ME!! this is bullshit and my sister wont answer any of my calls. and nobodys coming to my show next week for me. except mayb pat. and i still havent asked him yet. but prolly not my family. i just feel like breaking down and crying every minute of every day....*sigh* but i wont. i refuse to be a dram queen ne more. this is the ony place for my drama. no where else. gahhahjfadf fucking a man just gimme a gun i just wanna blow away my problems