Bones Fic: Losing My Religion (Part 7/?)

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The days trickle by at an excruciatingly slow pace. Parker is stuck at Rebecca’s with the flu, and Olivia has taken to working nights so as to stack some vacation time at the end of the month. The loneliness he feels without her is tempered by relief that at least she’s not around to see how much the situation with Brennan is messing with his head.

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And I'm late as usual. What else is new, right? You'd have heart failure if I actually reviewed in a timely fashion, so think of it this way - I'm doing it for your health! (and if you believe that, I've got some nice coastal land in Louisiana to sell you... ;) )

I love that Booth is trying to be so supportive of Brennan and her potential 'new partner' as he sees it, but I just can't help feeling that under it all is his own selfish need to know.

The problem with his plan is that they’ve never been very good at talking. In code, yes-running circles around what they really meant, what they really wanted, always so careful, never committing any game-changing truths to irrevocable words until the fateful night he did.

I loved this section. What a perfect way to sum up so much of their relationship up to the 100th ep.

And this was the perfect followup: But where silent communication was always their forte, excluding all intruders from their world of two, there is now only silence. Silence laden with misunderstanding and volatility and the painful absence of a connection he has never felt with anyone else.

So sad, but so absolutely true.

The scene in Brennan's apartment is very intense. They are both wound so tight, I spent the whole time waiting for one of them to seriously crack.

Poor Brennan. Her honesty to Booth is really heartbreaking: “Perhaps… the time away compromised my ability to rationalize. I admit that I allowed myself certain expectations, maybe even hopes, for our respective returns that seem childish in retrospect. As a result, I have found it… difficult… to adapt to the current parameters of our relationship. I’ve been alone most of my life, and have always preferred the solitude. But I don’t believe I’ve ever understood loneliness in quite the way I have experienced it these last few months. I continued to feel isolated, and restless, even in the company of those closest to me.

And we get a scene that is similar to the one we saw in canon in the SUV, except to me, your scene feels more honest. Booth was too calm in canon; here we get to see the frustration and the passion burst free: “No, no, no, no, Bones!” He is out of his seat like a shot, thundering toward her. “You don’t get to do this. You can’t shoot me down and then say stuff like that.”

The effect on Booth is so physical, you can feel the emotional turmoil. It's utterly heartbreaking. And so is the final line: It is only a minute later, when he should have been well out of earshot, that he hears her quiet, broken sobs. Wow... you've done what I would have loved to have seen in canon, but what fell well short. Emotional and heartbreaking and intense. Just... wow.

Looking forward to seeing where they go from here...

Happy holidays to you and the family!