Crappiness
I should keep an on going list of all the bad stuff that has happened so that I can be grateful whenever my life turns around. (yeah right)
I hate high school reunions. It makes me feel like crap cause I haven't gone anywhere with my life. It's jealousy, anger and rage all mixed in one. I smile politely but inside its burning to the point where I feel so worthless.
I haven't been this cranky since I was in high school. Maybe it's because this is the first time I'm living at home after living in Waterloo for slightly more than a year. Maybe it's because my dad is always at home and it pisses me off even further. Especially due to the fact that he doesn't seem like to be doing anything at home.
I should've stayed in Waterloo. Everytime I do something my dad has something to say. For instance, the job interview yesterday did not go well at all. I saw the interviewer scoring me and I got 12/15 in total. Stupid me - I knew the answers to one of the questions...damn those "In your opinion, define..." During the car ride to the subway station, my dad kept saying how I won't be hired because the organization would probably hire someone from within and he kept saying how bad and horrible my job would be working with drug addicts and people at the poverty line. Hell, he keeps telling me to go into business cause that is where the money is. Am I naive for believing that I can handle finance with this type of occupation? I want a steady and sustainable income but I'm not stupid when it comes to saving. Some father he is. I know he is telling me the truth - but I"m not 5 years old. I've seen worst in my life.
Anyways, I'm hoping either the other three candidates that were interviewed were dumb asses or they got struck by lightning cause I have no chance of getting this job now. Moreover, it leaves me unemployed for the rest of the summer. I'm being a brat, but I really do not feel like looking for another intern/summer job or working in retail or in the restaurant industry - I want experience, the money at this point doesn't really matter. If I were to volunteer, it has to be a tremendous experience that requires oversea work (which would be too late for application unless someone dropped out).
I hate sitting around doing nothing. I finished watching the entire seasons of Brother and Sisters online and I'm bored. I feel so worthless and lazy with my brain rotting on the side. It blows. I'm done unpacking and cleaning my entire house and all other little itty bitty errands that need to be accomplished. Everyone is telling me to just "relax" - frankly I rather be in school than being bored.
I need to think of something amazing to do soon.
I hate high school reunions. It makes me feel like crap cause I haven't gone anywhere with my life. It's jealousy, anger and rage all mixed in one. I smile politely but inside its burning to the point where I feel so worthless.
I haven't been this cranky since I was in high school. Maybe it's because this is the first time I'm living at home after living in Waterloo for slightly more than a year. Maybe it's because my dad is always at home and it pisses me off even further. Especially due to the fact that he doesn't seem like to be doing anything at home.
I should've stayed in Waterloo. Everytime I do something my dad has something to say. For instance, the job interview yesterday did not go well at all. I saw the interviewer scoring me and I got 12/15 in total. Stupid me - I knew the answers to one of the questions...damn those "In your opinion, define..." During the car ride to the subway station, my dad kept saying how I won't be hired because the organization would probably hire someone from within and he kept saying how bad and horrible my job would be working with drug addicts and people at the poverty line. Hell, he keeps telling me to go into business cause that is where the money is. Am I naive for believing that I can handle finance with this type of occupation? I want a steady and sustainable income but I'm not stupid when it comes to saving. Some father he is. I know he is telling me the truth - but I"m not 5 years old. I've seen worst in my life.
Anyways, I'm hoping either the other three candidates that were interviewed were dumb asses or they got struck by lightning cause I have no chance of getting this job now. Moreover, it leaves me unemployed for the rest of the summer. I'm being a brat, but I really do not feel like looking for another intern/summer job or working in retail or in the restaurant industry - I want experience, the money at this point doesn't really matter. If I were to volunteer, it has to be a tremendous experience that requires oversea work (which would be too late for application unless someone dropped out).
I hate sitting around doing nothing. I finished watching the entire seasons of Brother and Sisters online and I'm bored. I feel so worthless and lazy with my brain rotting on the side. It blows. I'm done unpacking and cleaning my entire house and all other little itty bitty errands that need to be accomplished. Everyone is telling me to just "relax" - frankly I rather be in school than being bored.
I need to think of something amazing to do soon.