i feel so tired. oh so tired.
I decided to rest up today... from working out at least. I wasn't scheduled to work until 11, so it would be a great morning right?
But I'm just.. feeling like crap. The relationship drama has worn me out and I've kept a few things bottled up, still. I'm frustrated with a few other things. Last night, they were all dancing around in my head, but I didn't want to bring it up. I think it's what caused my stomach to hurt. This morning, the thoughts were back and I just felt like screaming. I tried to calm down, smile. Couldn't do it. Ended up calling in sick. I wasn't really lying anyway. My stomach was killing me.
Overall I'm just exhausted and I cannot deal with people. I know I need to bring this other stuff up with Gabe. A couple things don't even have to do with him, but it would still help to talk.
Feeling slightly better now... Keeping distracted, watching Scrubs. My eyes hurt when I read things on the computer for too long. When I push my chair back a bit and just watch a show, I can last longer. Reading a book is difficult after a while too. Yesterday afternoon, every time I tried to read my head felt like it was splitting open.
Speaking of my eyes. They've been twitchy lately, so I had an optometrist (sp?) appointment yesterday. Seems I'm long overdue for glasses and I've been straining my eyes. Hence the twitching and head aches. I'll be getting my glasses next Monday or Tuesday... one pair for reading and one for general use, especially for seeing things far away. That'll help a lot when I'm in lecture halls in college.
Ah, now moving onto college. I'm one social science class short for acceptance. Today I'll enroll at North Seattle Community College to take one semester of history or something. Hopefully I can still start at UW in fall if accepted.
Blah. I don't feel like doing much today... tired...
But I'm just.. feeling like crap. The relationship drama has worn me out and I've kept a few things bottled up, still. I'm frustrated with a few other things. Last night, they were all dancing around in my head, but I didn't want to bring it up. I think it's what caused my stomach to hurt. This morning, the thoughts were back and I just felt like screaming. I tried to calm down, smile. Couldn't do it. Ended up calling in sick. I wasn't really lying anyway. My stomach was killing me.
Overall I'm just exhausted and I cannot deal with people. I know I need to bring this other stuff up with Gabe. A couple things don't even have to do with him, but it would still help to talk.
Feeling slightly better now... Keeping distracted, watching Scrubs. My eyes hurt when I read things on the computer for too long. When I push my chair back a bit and just watch a show, I can last longer. Reading a book is difficult after a while too. Yesterday afternoon, every time I tried to read my head felt like it was splitting open.
Speaking of my eyes. They've been twitchy lately, so I had an optometrist (sp?) appointment yesterday. Seems I'm long overdue for glasses and I've been straining my eyes. Hence the twitching and head aches. I'll be getting my glasses next Monday or Tuesday... one pair for reading and one for general use, especially for seeing things far away. That'll help a lot when I'm in lecture halls in college.
Ah, now moving onto college. I'm one social science class short for acceptance. Today I'll enroll at North Seattle Community College to take one semester of history or something. Hopefully I can still start at UW in fall if accepted.
Blah. I don't feel like doing much today... tired...