Enigma
Enigma: An inscrutable or mysterious person.
That definition explains all that Jeff Hardy is.
He is a mystery that no one will solve.
He is the very reason I watch wrestling.
Ten years ago, i saw him and Matt and at the time, i couldn't explain how they made me felt while watching...What ever the feeling was, I went with it. I didn't run, didn't deny it. I went with it. Jeff, I always had a liking for. He was my quote unquote first love of the wrestling world. I quit watching when he disappeared off 2003. We all know what happened. Back then, i had innocent eyes to the industry so I didn't know then. I just wondered what happened to him. I was away from wrestling until 07 when I was watching wrestlemania 23 and I saw Jeff and matt once again. I was back into wrestling. Sticking with the first love analogy, he was back in my life and i i basically became purely infatuated with him. Watching every week, at one time recording everything week to week. Seriously...I had it bad. Things kept happening to Jeff, the various things which they were. I still held in there. But that initial OH MY GOD he's hot love disappeared and we entered what i would like to call the friend stage. Still supported him, still admiring everything he did. He was doing things to entertain us. He was doing a fantastic job doing so... Then he says he's leaving to take a break. It became good bye time for a good friend who in a way we saw every week and to whom we offered support through an illuminated screen in front of us, or from an arena. He was gone, still around, but gone from every week viewing. I was sad to see him go but i knew it was what he needed. He needed this break.................
We all know what happened next, the flawed hero we loved had some issues arise. Ones very serious. Weaker people ran away, true fans stayed in there. They held out hope. Still hold out hope.
Then last night, he appears and I am ecstatic! Its been a while, man it was good to see him. Others, were initially happy and then turned.... If he goes there, they will ruin him. You cannot ruin a spirit like that, no matter what they may make him do. He is ruined, inside. His back and his legs are in terrible shape, but something in him convinces him to go on. To visit again from week to week. To keep entertaining people who still want to see him. Who still care, who aren't being so terribly judgmental. I as a fan am happy.
Now we all know I have moved on. Still a fan, still a supporter, he always has that spot in my fandom heart. He was the first wrestler that had me emotionally invested in every predetermined match he wrestled. There is no replacing the feelings he has evoked from me the 3 years. There isn't one single way that's replaceable.
Again i have to write another blog about how i support him. No matter what. I'm not running away. In an odd way, it would be like turning my back on a friend if i did. Does his whole real life situation frustrate me? Yes. Is there anything i can do about it? No, except offer support through trying times. Even if my words of encouragement never reach him at least i know I am supportive. What do you have to say about it?
That definition explains all that Jeff Hardy is.
He is a mystery that no one will solve.
He is the very reason I watch wrestling.
Ten years ago, i saw him and Matt and at the time, i couldn't explain how they made me felt while watching...What ever the feeling was, I went with it. I didn't run, didn't deny it. I went with it. Jeff, I always had a liking for. He was my quote unquote first love of the wrestling world. I quit watching when he disappeared off 2003. We all know what happened. Back then, i had innocent eyes to the industry so I didn't know then. I just wondered what happened to him. I was away from wrestling until 07 when I was watching wrestlemania 23 and I saw Jeff and matt once again. I was back into wrestling. Sticking with the first love analogy, he was back in my life and i i basically became purely infatuated with him. Watching every week, at one time recording everything week to week. Seriously...I had it bad. Things kept happening to Jeff, the various things which they were. I still held in there. But that initial OH MY GOD he's hot love disappeared and we entered what i would like to call the friend stage. Still supported him, still admiring everything he did. He was doing things to entertain us. He was doing a fantastic job doing so... Then he says he's leaving to take a break. It became good bye time for a good friend who in a way we saw every week and to whom we offered support through an illuminated screen in front of us, or from an arena. He was gone, still around, but gone from every week viewing. I was sad to see him go but i knew it was what he needed. He needed this break.................
We all know what happened next, the flawed hero we loved had some issues arise. Ones very serious. Weaker people ran away, true fans stayed in there. They held out hope. Still hold out hope.
Then last night, he appears and I am ecstatic! Its been a while, man it was good to see him. Others, were initially happy and then turned.... If he goes there, they will ruin him. You cannot ruin a spirit like that, no matter what they may make him do. He is ruined, inside. His back and his legs are in terrible shape, but something in him convinces him to go on. To visit again from week to week. To keep entertaining people who still want to see him. Who still care, who aren't being so terribly judgmental. I as a fan am happy.
Now we all know I have moved on. Still a fan, still a supporter, he always has that spot in my fandom heart. He was the first wrestler that had me emotionally invested in every predetermined match he wrestled. There is no replacing the feelings he has evoked from me the 3 years. There isn't one single way that's replaceable.
Again i have to write another blog about how i support him. No matter what. I'm not running away. In an odd way, it would be like turning my back on a friend if i did. Does his whole real life situation frustrate me? Yes. Is there anything i can do about it? No, except offer support through trying times. Even if my words of encouragement never reach him at least i know I am supportive. What do you have to say about it?