Jesus gets us through the good and bad times...
so lately i've received a swift kick in the face with how much i abandoned religion. junior and senior year in high school I was all about it. what happened?
oh that's right. plymouth state happened. woops!
i met this kid at work who's going into his junior year in high school and he's full blown religious teenager like I once was. well, he more than I ever was, actually, but still... he's in 2 different youth group bands for his church, listens to christian rock, and isn't ashamed to talk about it at all. he's a cool young guy. just last night when I was talking to him about it I was just like... man... what happened to me? I still believe in God and Jesus and all that, and Heaven and Hell, but what along the way pushed me out of wanting to go to church or read the bible. Where in the last 4 years did I take a violent shove into being a skeptic about a bunch of this stuff, where I used to believe everything that was said to me about it, not only because I just chose to believe it, but I wanted to believe it. Everything, when I was first learning, and even when I think about it now, is so great about being a good person, following the rules, and getting into heaven. But... then you look at the bad side, which is more of the track I'm on, where you bend the rules, and sort of make up you're own path, and still expect to get through the Pearly Gates... well something's telling me that's not going to happen. So I think that's where I push it out of my head, and start to doubt the back bones of what is my religion. I say to myself, well, I'm a good person, I can't be going to hell.... but is that really the way it's going to pan out in the end? Or is there even actually a Heaven or Hell? Well, I'll tell you one thing, just the thought that there MIGHT be one of either is enough reason for me to still give religion a shot every once in a while. It's just... scary... that's all.
sorry if I've offended anyone, certainly not my intentions. Just thinking out loud... that's all.
peace!
oh that's right. plymouth state happened. woops!
i met this kid at work who's going into his junior year in high school and he's full blown religious teenager like I once was. well, he more than I ever was, actually, but still... he's in 2 different youth group bands for his church, listens to christian rock, and isn't ashamed to talk about it at all. he's a cool young guy. just last night when I was talking to him about it I was just like... man... what happened to me? I still believe in God and Jesus and all that, and Heaven and Hell, but what along the way pushed me out of wanting to go to church or read the bible. Where in the last 4 years did I take a violent shove into being a skeptic about a bunch of this stuff, where I used to believe everything that was said to me about it, not only because I just chose to believe it, but I wanted to believe it. Everything, when I was first learning, and even when I think about it now, is so great about being a good person, following the rules, and getting into heaven. But... then you look at the bad side, which is more of the track I'm on, where you bend the rules, and sort of make up you're own path, and still expect to get through the Pearly Gates... well something's telling me that's not going to happen. So I think that's where I push it out of my head, and start to doubt the back bones of what is my religion. I say to myself, well, I'm a good person, I can't be going to hell.... but is that really the way it's going to pan out in the end? Or is there even actually a Heaven or Hell? Well, I'll tell you one thing, just the thought that there MIGHT be one of either is enough reason for me to still give religion a shot every once in a while. It's just... scary... that's all.
sorry if I've offended anyone, certainly not my intentions. Just thinking out loud... that's all.
peace!