blarghhh!!

[bitchplease_]

why is this happening? why is it all just... crapping out now? it just sucks, there's no other way to describe it. missing someone is the most heart wrenching feeling in the world. and not knowing when you'll get to see them again is pretty awful too. yea, sure I could visit and go to shows, but it's not going to be a walk in the park. i need to stop my life every time they come around just so I get to see you. not that i'll care about dropping everything, because i want to see you every chance I get, it just... really really stinks. that's all. and the worste part about it is that I can't even come close to controlling my emotions about everything. I just get angry. ALL THE TIME. lately i'm always pissed off about something, but it's really because I'm having such a hard time with the thought of you leaving. 3 weeks is a short period of time. 3 months is not. ewwwwwwww.

so now i'm sitting in my room procrastinating on reading. but it's not like it's something boring. It's dante's inferno. but, i DID just finish a poli-gov paper, so I guess I deserve a little break. I just hope I dont procrastinate too long.

i'm getting a handle of vodka to last me through this weekend and spring fling. it'll be more than enough. but damn, alcohol is expensive.

my bank is playing mean money tricks on me. i'm 6 dollars poor-er than i should be, and i'm confused. i'll try to get down there tomorrow and figure it out.

ok, something more productive than livejournal happens.... NOW!