Fall to pieces
ughh.... im so messed up. Sat I went wit brian, steph, and brandy to the movies. Overall it was awesome but there were times when i got upset and wanted to cry. In a way i was kinda jealous but i hate being the jealous type. There is nothing i can do abt it, its extremely hard for me, espicially when ive put everything out there.
Yesterday just messing around and being myself. i asked "him" if he missed me and he was like thats an odd ? i asked y he said bc its hard to answer and i was like not that hard and he was gahh i want u to stop it and got all defensive when i was just messing around. I dont understand it he had to know i was just kidding. I mean seriously COME ON. but it doesnt really matter ne more. i guess thats all he needed to say to see how he really feels abt me.
I miss him more and more each passing day. Im so head over heels in love. (gahh i love that saying LOL) Its really hard though knowing that he loves someone else.
Chris still hasnt answered my ? abt prom. i dont know how much longer i can wait. im so impatient and its driving me crazzzy. Im all out of options of course wit my luck my first choice couldnt go and i would give nething if he could wit me. My heart has be broken into a million pieces wit no way of putting back together.
Yesterday just messing around and being myself. i asked "him" if he missed me and he was like thats an odd ? i asked y he said bc its hard to answer and i was like not that hard and he was gahh i want u to stop it and got all defensive when i was just messing around. I dont understand it he had to know i was just kidding. I mean seriously COME ON. but it doesnt really matter ne more. i guess thats all he needed to say to see how he really feels abt me.
I miss him more and more each passing day. Im so head over heels in love. (gahh i love that saying LOL) Its really hard though knowing that he loves someone else.
Chris still hasnt answered my ? abt prom. i dont know how much longer i can wait. im so impatient and its driving me crazzzy. Im all out of options of course wit my luck my first choice couldnt go and i would give nething if he could wit me. My heart has be broken into a million pieces wit no way of putting back together.