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Sunday was interesting, to say the very least. I smoked way too much pot w/ a few friends of mine and totally freaked out. It was either super potent weed or laced with something. I felt as if my whole body was buzzing and my mind couldn't stop moving. I remember being afraid that I wouldn't ever come out of it, that I'd be stuck in with my mind skipping from one bizarre thing to another. I didn't know what was real or what was merely part of the drugs I'd taken. I'd get snatches of reality now and then but it would fade and I wouldn't know whether that was real or I merely imagined it. It was a bit like having night terrors. You think you're finally awake but then you realize you're not and the whole thing repeats over again. While trying to walk to my friend's house, I felt my knees melt and solidify over and over again. But I did have a snippet of a cool experience through the whole thing. For just a minute, I felt as if I could see every possibility everything could offer. I could see all the possible roads my life and my thoughts could take. It was pretty intense. Sadly, this didn't last long and I went back to my own little mind hell. I'm ok now but I couldn't imagine anything ever being ok again while that was happening. I wish the circumstances could have been different. because I think a really positive experience may have come out of it if they were.