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Well, it's been an odd couple of days. I had a nervous breakdown in the library Wednesday night. It was great, I was sitting with psych. journals all around me sobbing like a little girl with a skinned knee because I couldn't find the stuff I needed. I managed to get the paper done in time though. It's not a bad paper but, it's not one I'm terribly proud of either. Later that night when I was working on it, Rachel called me. She found out that I slept with Edmund. She cried and yelled at me for a good fifteen minutes. Then she said she was really angry and would say something hurtful and that she should go. i told her if she wanted to talk it out when she calmed down, that she was welcomed to call me. I haven't heard from her because my phone's messed up. However, Rachel called Heather and talked to her about it. Rachel told Heather the story about the incident that Ed gave her. He claimed that I asked him over, that I was coming on to him, that he was talking about his situation w/ Rachel and I told him to "do whatever made him happy" and that I suggested that we had sex. It was, of course, Ed who asked to come over and suggested sex. I never came on to him and he sure as hell was not talking about Rachel. To make matters worse, Rachel gave the impression to Heather that she believe that load of shit Ed fed her. I hate this while situation. I just got done with my paper and my finals and instead of feeling relieved, I can't stop thinking about this other B.S. This summer I will be enjoying the privilege of having a private room! It's going to be very cool. I'm getting a taste of what it will be like right now. My roommate has moved out completely. I can smoke and walk around naked and play loud music whenever I please. There's a two week gap between now and when classes start for summer. I think I'll try and do somethings to better my self during that time. I'm going to start drawing again, read more, and perhaps update my journal more often. I've neglected stuff like that for far too long. It'll be much easier to express myself when I don't feel as if I'm being watched all the time. Shortly my parents will be here to drop off bags so I can pack. I have to be out by Tuesday and my room is no where near clean or packed. It's going to be a long weekend. Thursday was fun but bittersweet. I saw Bonna for the last time until August. We went to the midnight movie at Wynnsong. We sat next to George and talked and laugh through the whole film, as we usually do. During the ride home, the both of us realized that we wouldn't see each other again for quite some time. I suppose the reality of not being able to hang out for three whole months didn't hit us until then. It was very sad. I miss Bonna already and it's only been a few days. God, I almost forgot, I went to see Nader on Monday! I rode with Heather Windy, and Windy's five year old son, Mac. We got a flat tire on the way there and I began to seriously doubt whether we'd be able to make it in time. Thankfully, some kind stranger came and helped us. It was very sweet of him. Anyways, Nader's speak was amazing. It seemed that was able to articulate all the problems we just can't find the words to describe. During the Q&A session, Heather and Windy spoke. Heather commented about the sanctions in Iraq and Windy attacked poor Mr. Nader (heh, you kind of had to be there). Some one I have a lil crush on showed up to see Nader too, so I was pretty happy. On the drive home, Heather explained the situation in Iraq to Alan and Jaysun. I was glad because I was a able to contirbute a bit, too. Jaysun brought up the idea of putting on a musical in the middle of the mall. It sounded like a pretty good idea to me. On the way back, Heather became disoriented nad almost killed us. Fun was had by all. God, this entry is dry. I really need write things down on the day they happened. If I wait too long, I lose some of my ability to talk about them. I had a strange dream the other night. I dreamt I was at an amusement/water park and I was having a grand psychotic episode. I kept grimacing and emphasizing different words in a weird, loud voice. It was really strange. Well buhbye for now