Interesting thought....

[bitabetta]

I'm quitting jazz. If i could, i'd quit all my music classes, my art classes, everything. You want to know why? Well, lets start with the fact that I am not very creative. Many people tell me I am, but if they only knew how hard it is for me to even think up an idea much less produce something worth others time to see. In my room, i have five of my best pieces of art hanging on my walls. They are fragments of what i used to have, and now my heart breaks when i see them. I can't do it anymore. I can't draw, i can't paint...i can't sing. Last year, I produced two good works. One was in chalk, the other in colored pencil. Both are framed. however, when i try to draw anymore, everything i do is junk. same with my writing. Then today, I learned something. I learned that i can't sing. I learned that my 'singing' is though of as the same quality as those choir girls who are ridiculed all the time. Do people have gossip groups about me and my immature, ameture voice that is horrible? Yes, they do. Mr Proff apparently has told a couple people what he thinks of my voice. he'll be kicking me out of jazz 'cause i messed up. he'd probably kick me out of chamber choir, but he can't till the end of the sememster. But yeah, there goes the only stuff i thought i could do.

Good night world, and good bye.