Made in India
I'm feeling so "emo" and alone and sad and tired and sick. Lethal combination. I have two midterms this week, but I just don't feel like cracking open a book and studying.
This week started with a bicycle accident (my second one at UCD) and consequently, I'm really sore. I'm feeling like I'm getting sick again, even though I just recovered from my last episode. My grandparents are gone, my mom is alone, and my dad sounds sad. I feel like I'm surrounded by gloom.
I really don't know what to do...I guess a shower and a good night's sleep will make me feel better but I don't know.
Today in stats lecture, I sat there reminiscing about my school friends in India..Sometimes, I really wish I'd stayed in touch with them...I mean, I shared half of my young life with those people, and they knew a part of me which not many people know or remember. I want to talk about dance classes, and Shamala Didi (our teacher), and the little candy shop across the street from our school (Mirambika) and my puppy Minny..I want to talk to Madhu (my best friend) about watching Captain Planet and Swat Kats at his house after school everyday. I want to know how his really nice grandpa and his little brother Vasu are doing..I want to talk to Shruti and know what college she's studying at..and Hema and KP and Vivek and Vikram and..I know I'm not making much sense right now..but I just feel the need to connect with that part of my life..and there's no one who can help me..
Even an email from one of them would make me so happy. I really don't know what's going on with me these days. I'm going to go take a nice hot shower and just go to sleep and hopefully wake up and have a better day tomorrow.
This week started with a bicycle accident (my second one at UCD) and consequently, I'm really sore. I'm feeling like I'm getting sick again, even though I just recovered from my last episode. My grandparents are gone, my mom is alone, and my dad sounds sad. I feel like I'm surrounded by gloom.
I really don't know what to do...I guess a shower and a good night's sleep will make me feel better but I don't know.
Today in stats lecture, I sat there reminiscing about my school friends in India..Sometimes, I really wish I'd stayed in touch with them...I mean, I shared half of my young life with those people, and they knew a part of me which not many people know or remember. I want to talk about dance classes, and Shamala Didi (our teacher), and the little candy shop across the street from our school (Mirambika) and my puppy Minny..I want to talk to Madhu (my best friend) about watching Captain Planet and Swat Kats at his house after school everyday. I want to know how his really nice grandpa and his little brother Vasu are doing..I want to talk to Shruti and know what college she's studying at..and Hema and KP and Vivek and Vikram and..I know I'm not making much sense right now..but I just feel the need to connect with that part of my life..and there's no one who can help me..
Even an email from one of them would make me so happy. I really don't know what's going on with me these days. I'm going to go take a nice hot shower and just go to sleep and hopefully wake up and have a better day tomorrow.