Jun 28, 2005 00:29
Finally Home. I feel even. I don't wanna say balanced but even is close enough. I sang again. I've somehow gotten to like it more.
Me and my George Thorogood :)
I have to adapt. Really adapt. I haven't had to in along time. When I did before I succeeded but it was too late or not enough or whatever I'm not sure I guess. I don't want it to be too late again. So I have to practice the one truth about growing up the secret they don't tell you till you find out for yourself. When you grow you find it never ends and you never stop growing. Thats the secret. It never ends.
I learned it long ago but don't always realize it. I don't always keep with me. But it is a secret and a truth worth kowing you have to accept it though and remeber it thats the hard part. The real bitch is keeping it with you not that you find it never ends but keeping it with you and using it to overcome, adapt, grow, evolve, to find yourself and have peace.
A friend told me that I think outside of the box like I always thought I did. But he mentioned something that I have looked at and thought about.
He said you think outside the box but you take the pieces outside of it and then try to put them back in the box. You can't always do that with all things. It doesn't always work that way. I am sorry if I'm not quoting him correctly. I have thought of it much. I believe he is right.
My words lack true description sometimes. I have assumed my definitions are the same as others. And that is not always the case nor always right. That isn't always the same case with everyone. I have to learn
to translate and to ask for the meaning. Nough said..... cause well even writing this can be convaluted in itself.
statement,
inside