Living in the emptiness of heart...
*Music begins with 'Fields of Hope'*
*groan*, When they say junior year is the hardest year, they mean it! All this working piling up on me...GAH!!! Its like drowning!! In work!!! Ok this is going to be more of a rant, so just forewarning you, this won't be the most interesting of entries. (ooook that sentense probably just mutilated the english language right there, yup... ._.).
*Music changes to 'Raindrops'*
Anyway...to the ranting!
I haven't been on AIM this whole week, its weird.
See, knowing my daily...erm...day, it follows a normal procedure. I wake up, go to school, come home, turn on the computer, follow my normal computer procedure, get off (its like 11-12 on an EARLY night), and go to sleep. So far I haven't strayed from this, and I trust that most of y'alls schedules aren't much different, but away... My daily computer procedure begins with me logging on my name, putting on some music (lately I've been in the mood for somber, calm, emotional, depressing, japanese songs; no clue why), checking my e-mail, checking my MSN e-mail, checking myspace, and sighing on AIM and MSN. But Monday I forgot to sign on AIM, and when I was about to....I didn't feel like it. Odd huh? I don't know what it is, but I didn't really see a point in signing on it. The main purpose for AIM is to talk to people right? Actually thats basically its only purpose. So there's not really any purpose to sign on it if you're not going to talk, sure most people (including myself) sign on just for the sake of being on, but this week, I dunno,I just felt kinda empty thinking about just chatting, so...yeah. Its weird, I'm feeling empty IMing people, like I'm not getting anything accomplished, I dunno. Its like I have feelings in my subconscious, I don't know what they are but they're still there, and I feel them. So yeah, thats my AIM rant...
*Music changes to "Sinking in Deep Water"*
Now to the "They should make piling this many tests a child labor law or something" rant:
*sigh* See we had a Bible Conference this week, now don't get me wrong, its not like I hated it, it was rather interesting. Now this Bible Conference totally messed up our whole class schedule. And since our teachers didn't want to give us homework during the Bible Conference, they decided to pile everything on friday! So basically tomorrow I have a research paper due (that alone is one full night, but amazingly I'm actually finished with it AHEAD of time!), we have a spanish exam (our spanish teacher doesn't give us tests, he gives only quizzes and exams), and those were things we knew about ahead of time, the major things. But today, we get a bible test and physics quiz just pushed on top of us. Now, for Bible I still think its wrong to just assign a TEST, ONE DAY in advance!!! And for physics...don't even get me started on that... WE had physics yesterday, did he tell us of a quiz? NO!!!! Did he even hint one....this whole week?! NO!!!! So thats something else we get warned only a day in advance about. That and I have some math homework I haven't finished yet, oh joy...
*Music changes to 'Fake Wings'*
so yeah... thats the current events so far.
Hopefully my next entry will be more...on a positive note than this one.
Anyway, for a little scene from "normal me" (not this stressed-out/confused me, the me that everyone usually sees and has fun writing journal entries...when shes not too lazy ~.^), I'm still going though a TSL obssession, though its not as strong, thats always progress. Actually now it has gone down to the point where its not an obssession, but just my latest "liking". Hmm... maybe that's why I feel empty, because I'm not "into" something right now. Maybe, maybe not... But it doesn't have to do with my "AIM emptiness"...so...I don't know, the more I write this entry the more confused I get!!!!! @.@
I still have to update my fanfic, yes, I'm actually putting some life into my ff.net account: ( http://www.fanfiction.net/u/385933/ ). Hopefully I can update this story, and maybe even finish it (!!!) before I grow tired of it. I would hate that, *sigh* hope writer's block doesn't attack me...
Well, see you until next update! Hopefully I will have updated my fanfic by next entry...
*groan*, When they say junior year is the hardest year, they mean it! All this working piling up on me...GAH!!! Its like drowning!! In work!!! Ok this is going to be more of a rant, so just forewarning you, this won't be the most interesting of entries. (ooook that sentense probably just mutilated the english language right there, yup... ._.).
*Music changes to 'Raindrops'*
Anyway...to the ranting!
I haven't been on AIM this whole week, its weird.
See, knowing my daily...erm...day, it follows a normal procedure. I wake up, go to school, come home, turn on the computer, follow my normal computer procedure, get off (its like 11-12 on an EARLY night), and go to sleep. So far I haven't strayed from this, and I trust that most of y'alls schedules aren't much different, but away... My daily computer procedure begins with me logging on my name, putting on some music (lately I've been in the mood for somber, calm, emotional, depressing, japanese songs; no clue why), checking my e-mail, checking my MSN e-mail, checking myspace, and sighing on AIM and MSN. But Monday I forgot to sign on AIM, and when I was about to....I didn't feel like it. Odd huh? I don't know what it is, but I didn't really see a point in signing on it. The main purpose for AIM is to talk to people right? Actually thats basically its only purpose. So there's not really any purpose to sign on it if you're not going to talk, sure most people (including myself) sign on just for the sake of being on, but this week, I dunno,I just felt kinda empty thinking about just chatting, so...yeah. Its weird, I'm feeling empty IMing people, like I'm not getting anything accomplished, I dunno. Its like I have feelings in my subconscious, I don't know what they are but they're still there, and I feel them. So yeah, thats my AIM rant...
*Music changes to "Sinking in Deep Water"*
Now to the "They should make piling this many tests a child labor law or something" rant:
*sigh* See we had a Bible Conference this week, now don't get me wrong, its not like I hated it, it was rather interesting. Now this Bible Conference totally messed up our whole class schedule. And since our teachers didn't want to give us homework during the Bible Conference, they decided to pile everything on friday! So basically tomorrow I have a research paper due (that alone is one full night, but amazingly I'm actually finished with it AHEAD of time!), we have a spanish exam (our spanish teacher doesn't give us tests, he gives only quizzes and exams), and those were things we knew about ahead of time, the major things. But today, we get a bible test and physics quiz just pushed on top of us. Now, for Bible I still think its wrong to just assign a TEST, ONE DAY in advance!!! And for physics...don't even get me started on that... WE had physics yesterday, did he tell us of a quiz? NO!!!! Did he even hint one....this whole week?! NO!!!! So thats something else we get warned only a day in advance about. That and I have some math homework I haven't finished yet, oh joy...
*Music changes to 'Fake Wings'*
so yeah... thats the current events so far.
Hopefully my next entry will be more...on a positive note than this one.
Anyway, for a little scene from "normal me" (not this stressed-out/confused me, the me that everyone usually sees and has fun writing journal entries...when shes not too lazy ~.^), I'm still going though a TSL obssession, though its not as strong, thats always progress. Actually now it has gone down to the point where its not an obssession, but just my latest "liking". Hmm... maybe that's why I feel empty, because I'm not "into" something right now. Maybe, maybe not... But it doesn't have to do with my "AIM emptiness"...so...I don't know, the more I write this entry the more confused I get!!!!! @.@
I still have to update my fanfic, yes, I'm actually putting some life into my ff.net account: ( http://www.fanfiction.net/u/385933/ ). Hopefully I can update this story, and maybe even finish it (!!!) before I grow tired of it. I would hate that, *sigh* hope writer's block doesn't attack me...
Well, see you until next update! Hopefully I will have updated my fanfic by next entry...