*not expressed in words....expressed in music....*
Summer vacation is so......BORING!!!!!!!
I'm starting to miss school, which is pretty sad, lol.
But it still feels like its school, when I wake up in the morning I feel like getting my stuff ready and heading to school. The bordom levels rise to that of I've-must-have-commited-a-murder-or-something-worse to recieve this level of boredness... Ok... maybe I'm over-exaggerating, just a little... <^-^
It doesn't feel like summer has come yet...
...but it has... and there's nothing I can do about it. ^-^
Now that I got that out, lets move on to things on a more lighter note shall we?
I went to the mall today with my friends Ashley and Danny. I'l be completely honest, it sucked. Not as boring as home... but it was still boring. I had fun but it was still boring, and I'm going to apoligize to my friends if they had a boring time, so I'm sorry if you had a boring time. But... at least, something good came out of it... to me at least...
I've been in such a bad mood lately, a depressing mood, an angry-at-everything mood. A mood... where I almost forgot how to smile... and truly be happy... I've tried to hide it, I've tried to get it out, but I was still stuck in my sadness and I felt like I was trapped. The boring days and the end of school didn't help it much either.
Then... today came...
The whole time I was at the mall I was feeling bad, I felt like an idiot because I was the one who planned this whole mall trip and everyone was bored, I felt it was my fault they were having such a boring time. I tried to make it fun, but... I'm just not one of those people, I don't know how to make people enjoy themselves. So I decided to leave early, I mean I'm sure it was better than letting them force themselves to stay at the mall bored. And I was their ride too, so it was all up to me. (I hate being the leader)...
After dropping my friends off, I started thinking... When I got home I started thinking more...
I can't remember exactly what came to my mind, or what happened... but it was at that moment...
I had remembered how to truly smile again...
That kind feeling... that warm heart... I was able to truly feel that again...
Today I was truly able... to smile a warm, happy smile... and mean it...
I'm starting to miss school, which is pretty sad, lol.
But it still feels like its school, when I wake up in the morning I feel like getting my stuff ready and heading to school. The bordom levels rise to that of I've-must-have-commited-a-murder-or-something-worse to recieve this level of boredness... Ok... maybe I'm over-exaggerating, just a little... <^-^
It doesn't feel like summer has come yet...
...but it has... and there's nothing I can do about it. ^-^
Now that I got that out, lets move on to things on a more lighter note shall we?
I went to the mall today with my friends Ashley and Danny. I'l be completely honest, it sucked. Not as boring as home... but it was still boring. I had fun but it was still boring, and I'm going to apoligize to my friends if they had a boring time, so I'm sorry if you had a boring time. But... at least, something good came out of it... to me at least...
I've been in such a bad mood lately, a depressing mood, an angry-at-everything mood. A mood... where I almost forgot how to smile... and truly be happy... I've tried to hide it, I've tried to get it out, but I was still stuck in my sadness and I felt like I was trapped. The boring days and the end of school didn't help it much either.
Then... today came...
The whole time I was at the mall I was feeling bad, I felt like an idiot because I was the one who planned this whole mall trip and everyone was bored, I felt it was my fault they were having such a boring time. I tried to make it fun, but... I'm just not one of those people, I don't know how to make people enjoy themselves. So I decided to leave early, I mean I'm sure it was better than letting them force themselves to stay at the mall bored. And I was their ride too, so it was all up to me. (I hate being the leader)...
After dropping my friends off, I started thinking... When I got home I started thinking more...
I can't remember exactly what came to my mind, or what happened... but it was at that moment...
I had remembered how to truly smile again...
That kind feeling... that warm heart... I was able to truly feel that again...
Today I was truly able... to smile a warm, happy smile... and mean it...