Operation Phoenix
Wow, livejournal is still goin strong. I am at a point in my life where I think it is time for me to use this site again, but not in the same way I did when I was younger (trust me, I know none of you who want that, I surely dont, I was one little emo fuck).
To start things off, I have been worrying about the future. For most of you who know me, you are probably aware that is never been one of my traits. For the most part I go through life carefree. Now I might get easily annoyed by stupid people, or people doing annoying ass things, but for the most part, I live day by day without worry to much about what is beyond the horizon. But I turned 28 this year, and am getting so much closer to 30. For some reason, I honestly believe I should be doing something great by that age. By great I mean be in a career that I have spent my whole adulthood prepping for. Working as a Trainer at Apple Retail is not such a job. I have spend over half of the previous decade earning my BA, and am finishing my MA and looking at PhD programs. But I am realistic, so a few thoughts have been lingering in my mind.
For one, what happens if I do not get into a PhD program...This is a real possibility, one I am keeping myself aware of. I always sell myself short because well, its the best way to be prepared for the worst. I may act like I am all that and bag of chips, but I dont honestly think that (though dont get me wrong, I am extremely content with what I have accomplished, I just dont have an overinflated ego). To get back to the topic at hand, if I do not get into a PhD program, I need to find another reason to force myself to leave San Diego. San Francisco is calling me, and my girlfriend supports me moving there so she can meet me there once she graduates. But if all I really wanna do is teach history at a college level, what options will I be left with if PhD doesn't not happen. JC....but for how long...getting old is lame.
To start things off, I have been worrying about the future. For most of you who know me, you are probably aware that is never been one of my traits. For the most part I go through life carefree. Now I might get easily annoyed by stupid people, or people doing annoying ass things, but for the most part, I live day by day without worry to much about what is beyond the horizon. But I turned 28 this year, and am getting so much closer to 30. For some reason, I honestly believe I should be doing something great by that age. By great I mean be in a career that I have spent my whole adulthood prepping for. Working as a Trainer at Apple Retail is not such a job. I have spend over half of the previous decade earning my BA, and am finishing my MA and looking at PhD programs. But I am realistic, so a few thoughts have been lingering in my mind.
For one, what happens if I do not get into a PhD program...This is a real possibility, one I am keeping myself aware of. I always sell myself short because well, its the best way to be prepared for the worst. I may act like I am all that and bag of chips, but I dont honestly think that (though dont get me wrong, I am extremely content with what I have accomplished, I just dont have an overinflated ego). To get back to the topic at hand, if I do not get into a PhD program, I need to find another reason to force myself to leave San Diego. San Francisco is calling me, and my girlfriend supports me moving there so she can meet me there once she graduates. But if all I really wanna do is teach history at a college level, what options will I be left with if PhD doesn't not happen. JC....but for how long...getting old is lame.