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hoi, komosta naman mo mga higala....?! dugay dugay na jud ko ka read ug blogs diri ug mas dugay pa jud nga wa ko ka post. busy man gud sa uban, busy sa life. anyway who are we kidding, i was never really a big-time posting person on this community. pero kon suya jud kaayu ko sa beginnings pa ko nganhi, samut na jud ron. so anyway the following is my contribution to or attempt to spark a conversation, to open a dialogue in this livejournal community of my bisayan countrymen and women. ah! mora ma'g korek..! pero warning lang ha, i think mai pagka confusing gamai ang akong gi write.. feeling nako nga mai mga li-ut li-ut nga is maybe embarrassingly counter-productive to my point about writing (if i really even have one). but, you be the judge. you who are reading this now.. kai really igo lang ko mo share ninyo sa akong mga vulnerable moments.
by the way, unsa mai word kaha or phrase ba ron nga mo equate ana'ng "vulnerable"...?
maybe its because i only now and only barely started reading Jessica Hagedorn's "Dogeaters" that the thought/question that once burned furiously in my daydreams found its way back to me, is there a place for me in the written world (beyond blogging and journal-writing.. i'm no anais nin, y'know)? am i fool-hearty (or worse, naive) enough to believe i could really fulfill that back-burned crazy dream? will i someday just wake up and be able to deftly retell all the stories that have been given to me by my family, friends, loved-ones...at least so they don't all fall away unremembered and untold. can i earn my space in the narrative simply by the constant, monotonous, terrifying, repetitious, cathartic, joyful, celebratory, complex, challenging, impossible act of writing?....
how many cebuana-american women fiction (or heck even creative NONfiction) writers do you know off the top of your head? off the top of the endless google searchings? i don't know and can't even pretend to know or be that educated. i'm not well read enough or even, at this point, the least bit academic. i've been thinking of posting the same question(s) to the fil_lit101 group since i've been out of the loop there too.
not about whether or not i can write or whether that will come to any good.. heck, no one can (or should) answer those questions but me.
the questions i'm talking about have to do with what kind of writing is out there and available for... interested people like me.. straddling two worlds (or more), trying &praying &working to stay balanced, in tune with a vast an unforgiving, ever-expanding universe. what kinds of stories, ideas, beliefs, values are being perpetuated by the written word. what aren't? what notions, what conscience, what awareness is forgotten. what histories are stirred up, what memories? what poetry, what ideals?
what relevance...?
so, i don't know.. mao lang to akong gipanghuna-huna. leave a comment lang kon inspired ka to answer a question with a question of your own. keep in mind sad nga wa sad ko kahibaw pod sa unsa jud ang kalake sa literature and contemporary writings sa pilipinas as a nation let alone sa visayas region or sa cebu man gani on its own. kon aduna gani mo ika-contribute o ika-recommend nga author or style or book okey lng ko ana.
kai ang importante jud nga magamit kanunay ang mind in constant agitation kai kon dili then wa na jud tai pagasa ug gawas pa pud i heard nga mo tigulang ta'g dali :)
[[pero unsaon man nga tigulang naman daan ni?! lol]]
by the way, unsa mai word kaha or phrase ba ron nga mo equate ana'ng "vulnerable"...?
maybe its because i only now and only barely started reading Jessica Hagedorn's "Dogeaters" that the thought/question that once burned furiously in my daydreams found its way back to me, is there a place for me in the written world (beyond blogging and journal-writing.. i'm no anais nin, y'know)? am i fool-hearty (or worse, naive) enough to believe i could really fulfill that back-burned crazy dream? will i someday just wake up and be able to deftly retell all the stories that have been given to me by my family, friends, loved-ones...at least so they don't all fall away unremembered and untold. can i earn my space in the narrative simply by the constant, monotonous, terrifying, repetitious, cathartic, joyful, celebratory, complex, challenging, impossible act of writing?....
how many cebuana-american women fiction (or heck even creative NONfiction) writers do you know off the top of your head? off the top of the endless google searchings? i don't know and can't even pretend to know or be that educated. i'm not well read enough or even, at this point, the least bit academic. i've been thinking of posting the same question(s) to the fil_lit101 group since i've been out of the loop there too.
not about whether or not i can write or whether that will come to any good.. heck, no one can (or should) answer those questions but me.
the questions i'm talking about have to do with what kind of writing is out there and available for... interested people like me.. straddling two worlds (or more), trying &praying &working to stay balanced, in tune with a vast an unforgiving, ever-expanding universe. what kinds of stories, ideas, beliefs, values are being perpetuated by the written word. what aren't? what notions, what conscience, what awareness is forgotten. what histories are stirred up, what memories? what poetry, what ideals?
what relevance...?
so, i don't know.. mao lang to akong gipanghuna-huna. leave a comment lang kon inspired ka to answer a question with a question of your own. keep in mind sad nga wa sad ko kahibaw pod sa unsa jud ang kalake sa literature and contemporary writings sa pilipinas as a nation let alone sa visayas region or sa cebu man gani on its own. kon aduna gani mo ika-contribute o ika-recommend nga author or style or book okey lng ko ana.
kai ang importante jud nga magamit kanunay ang mind in constant agitation kai kon dili then wa na jud tai pagasa ug gawas pa pud i heard nga mo tigulang ta'g dali :)
[[pero unsaon man nga tigulang naman daan ni?! lol]]