My 18th Birthday
As of right now, today, I have been alive upon this earth for 18 years. My skin smells like honeyed coconut. It's baby soft. I spent the first half of my day (yesterday April 5th) at the spa. I got a milk and honey back, a coconut scrub, and a hot stone massage. It was fantastic. It was a gift from my parents to reward the fact that I have survived so long on an academic schedule like mine. I also bought myself a gift today. He's blue, and his name is Percy.
The other day I bought a fabulous dress to wear to my recital today (April 6th). I'm singing two songs, and it's my final one. I'm going to attempt to go out with a bang and not give a crap about who hears me. It's time for some musical theatre brought to you by Rodgers and Hammerstein and little old moi. I'm going to make myself look fabulous. And I'll try and sound fabulous too.
Then after that I'm going out for a birthday dinner with my very fabulous Bree. We are going out for teppanyaki at my favorite almost hole in the wall restaurant. It's where I take all my friends when something fabulous is happening or about to happen. I also take myself there on my birthdays.
It's surprising. I feel so old. You know, now I truly understand what it means to close a chapter of your life. In one month I will be closing a doozy of one. It's called "High School." Here's hoping my publisher likes it. My God... I'm 18. In one month I'll be graduating high school. In three months I'll be moving to Deland. In six months I'll be taking my first college finals. My God... What happened to me? Where did my time go? I feel so different then how I was even last year. This usually never happens to me. I never feel different on the first day of my birthday. But I do. I feel like... I don't know... Maybe it was the Spring Break. Maybe it was all the Sex and the City finally striking home and inspiring me. Maybe it's the lack of sleep. But I feel like this feeling is going to stick. I just feel... different. I don't feel worried about much. Am I worried about school work and science fair? Yeah. About my current relationships? Not really. I feel like anything could work. I feel like I could keep in touch with people and stay friends even though we're hours away. I feel like this thing I have going with my guy could work. I feel like we could last. How long? I don't know. But I feel like high school is definitely not the end.
For many people, I think it will be. Once high school is over, what do they have left? Their lives will be relatively empty. What will I have? Well, I'll have fabulous friends. I'll have a fabulous family. I'll have a fabulous boyfriend. I'll even have a fabulous new laptop (the modern equivalent of Carrie Bradshaw's). But not just that, I'll have a future. And right now, that future is sure looking bright. And who knows, besides the bright future, I may even have a fantastic last summer vacation.
The other day I bought a fabulous dress to wear to my recital today (April 6th). I'm singing two songs, and it's my final one. I'm going to attempt to go out with a bang and not give a crap about who hears me. It's time for some musical theatre brought to you by Rodgers and Hammerstein and little old moi. I'm going to make myself look fabulous. And I'll try and sound fabulous too.
Then after that I'm going out for a birthday dinner with my very fabulous Bree. We are going out for teppanyaki at my favorite almost hole in the wall restaurant. It's where I take all my friends when something fabulous is happening or about to happen. I also take myself there on my birthdays.
It's surprising. I feel so old. You know, now I truly understand what it means to close a chapter of your life. In one month I will be closing a doozy of one. It's called "High School." Here's hoping my publisher likes it. My God... I'm 18. In one month I'll be graduating high school. In three months I'll be moving to Deland. In six months I'll be taking my first college finals. My God... What happened to me? Where did my time go? I feel so different then how I was even last year. This usually never happens to me. I never feel different on the first day of my birthday. But I do. I feel like... I don't know... Maybe it was the Spring Break. Maybe it was all the Sex and the City finally striking home and inspiring me. Maybe it's the lack of sleep. But I feel like this feeling is going to stick. I just feel... different. I don't feel worried about much. Am I worried about school work and science fair? Yeah. About my current relationships? Not really. I feel like anything could work. I feel like I could keep in touch with people and stay friends even though we're hours away. I feel like this thing I have going with my guy could work. I feel like we could last. How long? I don't know. But I feel like high school is definitely not the end.
For many people, I think it will be. Once high school is over, what do they have left? Their lives will be relatively empty. What will I have? Well, I'll have fabulous friends. I'll have a fabulous family. I'll have a fabulous boyfriend. I'll even have a fabulous new laptop (the modern equivalent of Carrie Bradshaw's). But not just that, I'll have a future. And right now, that future is sure looking bright. And who knows, besides the bright future, I may even have a fantastic last summer vacation.