Matthew James 2/13/2006

[demoted_goddess]

Yes, that date is correct. A little over two years and I'm finally opening up about my son's birth. I'm really good at procrastinating and repressing. -.- Anyway, under the cut.

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[chaos_in_action]

http://www.ican-online.org and there's an e-mail group through yahoo groups. Its a rather high volume list, but well worth the time, I feel, to be on it. I have learned such an unbelievable amount of things through that group.

A book I recently got that has helped is Birthing From Within by Pam England. Going through the exercises that she has, such as birth art and such, have been helping me express those feelings that I have surrounding birth and my cesarean. Another book that is very good for information on VBAC and cesarean is Silent Knife by Nancy Wainer Cohen. Its an older book, but still a very good read. A good place to start for informational purposes.

Healing can be so tough. Some days I feel as if the pain isn't ever going to go away. Others, I feel okay with things, brave about things. And still more its all I can do to simply not think about it, otherwise I'm afraid it'll tear me down, piece by piece. I just keep telling myself that it *will* get better - and slowly, it will.

*hugs*

[demoted_goddess]

Oh, awesome. I'll see about taking a look at those books and try to get on the yahoo group. I really appreciate it. *hugs*