(Голо́дный, как волк.)

[birjuzovyj]

( as per her normal ritual, viktoriya is standing her opened room finishing setting up for her afternoon tea. not just the door, but the windows as well; the coming summer breeze wafting the smell of pastries and tea about their hall. she herself moves to sit, back to the door and eyes instead focused on the the open windows and giving a slow sigh

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[moskva_prince]

{Entering her room, Dimitri finds a couch and lays down. Yup he doesn't wait for no type of invitation at all. Rubbing at his shoulder, he remains silent.}

[birjuzovyj]

( and if you were anyone else but her brother this hot tea would currently be being poured on you. she doesn't say anything, eyes still on the window as she enjoys her tea. )

[moskva_prince]

{After a long moment of silence, Dimitri speaks up.}

Do you think I'm a failure?

[birjuzovyj]

No. ( she turns her head a bit. ) Why do you ask?

[moskva_prince]

{Rubbing his hands together slowly, Dimitri closes his eyes.}
I am finally taking baby steps to better myself. Not nothing major yet, just fixing minor things. Though I find myself going back on my word, because I am set off by the smallest of things.
It seems like I am at a standstill now...and I am pushing people away. I really want to change, but...I just think that I am failing a lot at it.

Sorry to bother you with my troubles.

[birjuzovyj]

Change for the... better, as you say. It always takes time and it isn't to surprising if you wind up messing up, you are technically learning. Instead of drowning in your mistakes, take them and learn from them. Though, you shouldn't push people away-- especially those that care enough to offer help. They'll be the ones that offer the best help toward your change.

[moskva_prince]

My problem is that I don't like messing up, and I am very impatient. I want it to be instantaneous; but I guess I will just have to give it time. {Staring at his nails, Dimitri sighs.}
I will keep that in mind...

[birjuzovyj]

... Sadly it's something you must accept. Change is not something that happens overnight.

[moskva_prince]

{He' sounding like a real brat right now.}

I don't want to accept it.

[birjuzovyj]

Then you'll never change.

[moskva_prince]

W-why does it have to be so difficult?

[birjuzovyj]

Who knows. But change usually is, a part of growing up.

[moskva_prince]

{Sitting up on the couch, Dimitri chuckles softly.}

[birjuzovyj]

( and she'll just raise a brow to this. )

[moskva_prince]

Then I have a lot of growing up to do...

[birjuzovyj]

Realizing that you do takes a lot, so you'll already on your way to this change you want.