stupid brain.
I decided not to take my antidepressants anymore about a week ago.
Today contained the first anxiety attack i've had in ages that ended up with a full blown panic attack.
I'm still shaky and kind of upset and needing of... something.
Guess I can't do without them. At least I was smart enough to stay on the antipsychotics. Heh. Last time I went off them was in 2006, after taking pills/walking into traffic/seeing visions of children being decapitated.
Talking about these things openly scares me, because most people here have only known me from 2007 onwards, and I was much better by then.
I'm sad that I can't live without being medicated. I'm sad and scared and all alone.
Today contained the first anxiety attack i've had in ages that ended up with a full blown panic attack.
I'm still shaky and kind of upset and needing of... something.
Guess I can't do without them. At least I was smart enough to stay on the antipsychotics. Heh. Last time I went off them was in 2006, after taking pills/walking into traffic/seeing visions of children being decapitated.
Talking about these things openly scares me, because most people here have only known me from 2007 onwards, and I was much better by then.
I'm sad that I can't live without being medicated. I'm sad and scared and all alone.