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Hey, sorry I didn't update for awhile.
My summer has been going alright. All I have to say is that It's really nice not having to do anything except teach a few hitting lessons a week.
I've hung out with some highschool friends (Becca, Sam B. and Gillian). It was awesome going to CLearwater and the Braves game with becca (Spending WAYY too much money..yet it was way worth it). Before that we went to a place to smoke hooka. I had never done that before but it was pretty cool... as long as i don't get too used to it.
I ran into my friend Sara from middle school...we played softball together for a season or too. I know she is going to read this, so i hope she doesn't take what i'm about to say in the wrong way but She's so awesome. I wish I had gotten closer to her before, you know, going to school in PA.
I also "ran into" my first crush from middle school...from 6th grade. We talked for a few but he was working so we couldn't really Talk. Def has a gf (info. via facebook) and really didn't like her at all in middle school...haha.
I got some really good information from my friend Katie S about talking to guys... but you know what, I was So nervous when I was talking to him and i couldn't help from getting "butterflies" (wtf you want to call it). He still seems like the great guy that he used to be..and a lot of people never stay the same for that long.
Anyway, by seeing both of these people it just made me think about how everything would have been different if I have just went to Winter Springs Highschool. I left a lot of amazing people behind that I really should have missed more. You know, maybe I would have been Drum Major and now be in marching band at FSU...that's what i've always wanted to do since i knew what marching band was.
When I went to Trinity in 10th grade I became a person who would drift in between "cliques." Even with the "group" I was a part of, I still never really fit in. Then there were a select few that were part of the "SEVEN YEAR CLUB." I really hated that club after I graduated. I hated it because I couldn't recall the silly and stupid things that me and my friends did in middle school with people who normally wouldn't even give me the time of day.
I would have been part of the Seven Year Club if i stayed at Winter Springs... I didn't even stay at Seminole.. I QUIT the IB program...just like the 300 students who don't make it through the program..I wasn't 1 of the 100 students to make it...That pisses me off soo much.
And I hate facebook because I see the friends i used to "Hang out" with still hanging out now.
I know the people i know from Trinty are reading this and saying WTF...
When I read Becca's k. post about being homesick...that is what started making me think about this. I wasn't sad at graduation. I wasn't homesick last year when i was 24 hours away from home. I didn't miss my family or most of my friends.
I started playing on this adult league team. All the girls after the games go out and drink and tell old stories of when they used to hang out with each other 5 years ago.
I miss my Trinity friends and I don't want what happened to me with my friends from middle school to happen to my trinity friends.
I'm not even away yet and I miss everyone already. I'm not being selfish but everyone has their own life now and I don't like it. I hate that I don't have time to call my friends because i'm busy from 5:30 AM until 9:30 at night from doing softball. Softball is my life now..not that it wasn't before. But it Really is.. I have to play to pay for college.
My PINK Uniform wearing adult league team is perfect. It is fun. UNLIKE college ball. I Hate it. You have to be on time. You can't drink. You can't enjoy the game. It is not fun because if you laugh at one of your mistakes in practice because you find yourself face down on the grass running sprints for 30 minutes for not being serious enough. "You have to go through this to be a better player" BULL SHIT. My freaking "18 and over" team is better than any college team I could ever play for...and half the players have kids and can Still play.
Yes i'm ranting... I can't be sorry for this one. This is what happens after your first year in college. Becca's post (which has been deleted already) has given me proof...if you double the results of an experiment..that means it possibly could be true.
The only thing I liked about college is that I forget about my past. Yet, now that I have time to look back at how i was last school year... I was psycho. I was a different person. I Could blame it on the winter (because people get the winter depression) but i just can't. I was different..but i did resist hooking up (well just not having sex with him) with a HOT hockey player (for those of you who remember when i said I wanted to do that when i got back from Cornell)
OK, enough posting for now..i'm only allowed one monster post a month.
My summer has been going alright. All I have to say is that It's really nice not having to do anything except teach a few hitting lessons a week.
I've hung out with some highschool friends (Becca, Sam B. and Gillian). It was awesome going to CLearwater and the Braves game with becca (Spending WAYY too much money..yet it was way worth it). Before that we went to a place to smoke hooka. I had never done that before but it was pretty cool... as long as i don't get too used to it.
I ran into my friend Sara from middle school...we played softball together for a season or too. I know she is going to read this, so i hope she doesn't take what i'm about to say in the wrong way but She's so awesome. I wish I had gotten closer to her before, you know, going to school in PA.
I also "ran into" my first crush from middle school...from 6th grade. We talked for a few but he was working so we couldn't really Talk. Def has a gf (info. via facebook) and really didn't like her at all in middle school...haha.
I got some really good information from my friend Katie S about talking to guys... but you know what, I was So nervous when I was talking to him and i couldn't help from getting "butterflies" (wtf you want to call it). He still seems like the great guy that he used to be..and a lot of people never stay the same for that long.
Anyway, by seeing both of these people it just made me think about how everything would have been different if I have just went to Winter Springs Highschool. I left a lot of amazing people behind that I really should have missed more. You know, maybe I would have been Drum Major and now be in marching band at FSU...that's what i've always wanted to do since i knew what marching band was.
When I went to Trinity in 10th grade I became a person who would drift in between "cliques." Even with the "group" I was a part of, I still never really fit in. Then there were a select few that were part of the "SEVEN YEAR CLUB." I really hated that club after I graduated. I hated it because I couldn't recall the silly and stupid things that me and my friends did in middle school with people who normally wouldn't even give me the time of day.
I would have been part of the Seven Year Club if i stayed at Winter Springs... I didn't even stay at Seminole.. I QUIT the IB program...just like the 300 students who don't make it through the program..I wasn't 1 of the 100 students to make it...That pisses me off soo much.
And I hate facebook because I see the friends i used to "Hang out" with still hanging out now.
I know the people i know from Trinty are reading this and saying WTF...
When I read Becca's k. post about being homesick...that is what started making me think about this. I wasn't sad at graduation. I wasn't homesick last year when i was 24 hours away from home. I didn't miss my family or most of my friends.
I started playing on this adult league team. All the girls after the games go out and drink and tell old stories of when they used to hang out with each other 5 years ago.
I miss my Trinity friends and I don't want what happened to me with my friends from middle school to happen to my trinity friends.
I'm not even away yet and I miss everyone already. I'm not being selfish but everyone has their own life now and I don't like it. I hate that I don't have time to call my friends because i'm busy from 5:30 AM until 9:30 at night from doing softball. Softball is my life now..not that it wasn't before. But it Really is.. I have to play to pay for college.
My PINK Uniform wearing adult league team is perfect. It is fun. UNLIKE college ball. I Hate it. You have to be on time. You can't drink. You can't enjoy the game. It is not fun because if you laugh at one of your mistakes in practice because you find yourself face down on the grass running sprints for 30 minutes for not being serious enough. "You have to go through this to be a better player" BULL SHIT. My freaking "18 and over" team is better than any college team I could ever play for...and half the players have kids and can Still play.
Yes i'm ranting... I can't be sorry for this one. This is what happens after your first year in college. Becca's post (which has been deleted already) has given me proof...if you double the results of an experiment..that means it possibly could be true.
The only thing I liked about college is that I forget about my past. Yet, now that I have time to look back at how i was last school year... I was psycho. I was a different person. I Could blame it on the winter (because people get the winter depression) but i just can't. I was different..but i did resist hooking up (well just not having sex with him) with a HOT hockey player (for those of you who remember when i said I wanted to do that when i got back from Cornell)
OK, enough posting for now..i'm only allowed one monster post a month.