HEAVEN YES HELL NO
i had one of those dreams again, like the water dream three years ago, but this one was about sound and ended the same good good way. i think about alyssa's crocodile dream all the time. i think she has something. a few weeks ago when bill was here and we were going crazy in the kitchen, everybody going crazy kissing plants, she said there's science and then there's something else. sometimes i feel like my eyes actually twinkle, you could find me in the dark. i saw some images that the hubble telescope took. stars being born in the orion nebula, galaxies pulling together and pulling apart, light still shining from far back beyond all conceivable time, space wind- when it goes that fast there has to be another name for it. anyway, i cry because i'm so fucking stoked. things go on indifferently. you can laugh with your friends, love a man deeply, work hard, kiss plants and feel everything. blink, and it's over for you. it was either good or it wasn't. i know i always say the same things.