welp here i am
ive survived my first week of college
and it was horriblly slow
at first i just thought of it as one of those week long summer camps
but now im starting to realize that im stuck here
for a long time
Ive met lots of nice people and people that i can hang with but im still missing those hard core friendships i left behind
i made bella voix and sym. band
my goal is to be in sym winds by next semi. but im really not sure if i cant do it
i kind of feel like i should be were i am but i dont want to be there
and ive been practicing alot
likemore then ive ever practiced in my life and i just dont think im gettting any bettter
plus the fact that ive been using all the wrong fingerings and i have to learn everything all over again
hate to say itbut bud and schrock were right
i dont want to change while im here
iv finally gotten to a point in my life where imhappy with who i am as a person
but with all of the new people who havent grown up with me its hard not to turn in to the person u always wanted to be
u know?
really the only time i am my self is when i with melissa and her friends
but when im with the other people i know im rediculasly calm and quiet i dont like it but i like them
so idont know if they'd like me if i was my self if they like me now
and i sopose i should tell you about my rooomie
welllll shes...... diffrent was in the room 30min with the girl and saw not only her boobs but her best friends boobs too!
shes ok when she's alone though and shes going to get an appartment next semi. and me and melissa are going to live together!!
exciting!!!
well i think im going to take a shower now
bye