Running as meditation
So one of the things I love best about running is the way your mind can work things out... like dreaming, but without all the scary nightmares about your boss in his underwear or whatnot. And meditation is definitely something I could use more of... peace of mind and all that.
So today on my run I thought through some things, and for posterity's sake, I'm recording them here.
This is what I need to do in order to be happier with my life:
*Actually work with Rusty and his aggression issues on a daily basis. I can't give up on him until I know I've done everything possible to live with him. I really do love the bugger, but I have a feeling he's going to make it impossible for me to (eventually) date someone and get serious.
*Start writing again. That way, even if I'm not working and no one wants me, I still have something productive that I'm working on, that may one day result in actual income. It's also a creative outlet, a fantasy world I can throw myself into. That's something I need on a daily basis.
*Reading some sort of self-help book on a regular basis. They really do help me feel better about myself and not be so negative all the time.
*Go back on birth control pills AS SOON AS FINANCIALLY POSSIBLE.
There might have been more, but that's what I remember for now. I really love running the White Pine Trail by my house--It goes for like 50 miles either direction (or something ridiculous, I think you can take it up to Cadillac), and it's nicely paved, with trees and yummy scents and birds. Last time I smelled raspberries, this time I smelled lilies. And the best part is that it's highly populated with other runners and bikers, so I don't have to worry overly much about being abducted.
Trying to be positive...
:)
So today on my run I thought through some things, and for posterity's sake, I'm recording them here.
This is what I need to do in order to be happier with my life:
*Actually work with Rusty and his aggression issues on a daily basis. I can't give up on him until I know I've done everything possible to live with him. I really do love the bugger, but I have a feeling he's going to make it impossible for me to (eventually) date someone and get serious.
*Start writing again. That way, even if I'm not working and no one wants me, I still have something productive that I'm working on, that may one day result in actual income. It's also a creative outlet, a fantasy world I can throw myself into. That's something I need on a daily basis.
*Reading some sort of self-help book on a regular basis. They really do help me feel better about myself and not be so negative all the time.
*Go back on birth control pills AS SOON AS FINANCIALLY POSSIBLE.
There might have been more, but that's what I remember for now. I really love running the White Pine Trail by my house--It goes for like 50 miles either direction (or something ridiculous, I think you can take it up to Cadillac), and it's nicely paved, with trees and yummy scents and birds. Last time I smelled raspberries, this time I smelled lilies. And the best part is that it's highly populated with other runners and bikers, so I don't have to worry overly much about being abducted.
Trying to be positive...
:)