Feeling Just Plain Lonesome
I am miserable. I have no idea why. Rahul is gone, I miss him. Where could he be? I want to talk to Rachel, but she, too, is not well. Whatever shall I do? Rahul's parents are on the brink of forbidding him to see me outside of school. The thought does not help my pain at all. I wish they were understanding people, but from the descriptions Rahul offers, I can see that they are not so. I only want to get away. Fishing helps my emotions become easy, so I went today with my sister. When we got there, we found that all our bait was rotten and had to return home. I feel even worse now. I feel cold all over, like I'm sick or something. It's my day off from my no carb-no sugar diet and I'm so miserable, I'm not even hungry. I don't want to sleep my life away, either, as I usually want to when I'm depressed. The only thing I want is Rahul. Oh, how I wish he'd return!