FML
Two days ago when I went to bed at 12:00 I couldn't fall asleep, I contacted Daria, we had a very bad conversation because she immediately hated me for telling her that I hadn't bought the tickets to Turkey yet and it ended with her swearing a lot and sending me the "Fuck you" emoji at the end. I thought she would soon melt and forgive me for being indecisive, but today I checked her Telegram and found out I was blacklisted. She also blacklisted me on Instagram. I've sent her six messages on WhatsApp, I don't know if I'm blocked there too since she has a business account.
My heart started beating hard and fast, I almost started crying. I called her cell phone number on Skype, heard someone talking, didn't say anything, she hung up six seconds later.
I ordered her the biggest bouquet of flowers for 300 PLN ($80 or so with delivery). I think it's worthless and I'll never see her again. Fuck my life.
Yesterday I bought a ticket to Antalya, but I didn't book a hotel because I wasn't sure which one was the best in terms of cost and food/location/quietness. One way ticket alone cost me 22000 rubles ($230).
I'm extremely upset. Damn.
5:33pm
She sent me an audio recording in WhatsApp, thank God. I called her right away. She was drunk two days ago, she thought I made some wild accusations, which I never did, she's got her share of problems and she couldn't catch her dog for an hour and a half and came home very late, after 2am. I asked if we could meet in Turkey, she said she'd have to think about it and I ended the conversation by telling her that she would definitely be smiling today. I hope the flower delivery will not fail.
I started crying hard after I hung up. I have not cried that hard in years. I don't want people to ostracize me anymore. I'm not bad. Mother, forgive me. My face is red with tears, I'm crying like crazy. I still can't get over how Maria fucked me over, no, I'm not talking about how she broke up with me, that was bad, but not extremely bad, I'm talking about our pseudo-relationships and her never telling me what and who she actually wanted.
My heart started beating hard and fast, I almost started crying. I called her cell phone number on Skype, heard someone talking, didn't say anything, she hung up six seconds later.
I ordered her the biggest bouquet of flowers for 300 PLN ($80 or so with delivery). I think it's worthless and I'll never see her again. Fuck my life.
Yesterday I bought a ticket to Antalya, but I didn't book a hotel because I wasn't sure which one was the best in terms of cost and food/location/quietness. One way ticket alone cost me 22000 rubles ($230).
I'm extremely upset. Damn.
5:33pm
She sent me an audio recording in WhatsApp, thank God. I called her right away. She was drunk two days ago, she thought I made some wild accusations, which I never did, she's got her share of problems and she couldn't catch her dog for an hour and a half and came home very late, after 2am. I asked if we could meet in Turkey, she said she'd have to think about it and I ended the conversation by telling her that she would definitely be smiling today. I hope the flower delivery will not fail.
I started crying hard after I hung up. I have not cried that hard in years. I don't want people to ostracize me anymore. I'm not bad. Mother, forgive me. My face is red with tears, I'm crying like crazy. I still can't get over how Maria fucked me over, no, I'm not talking about how she broke up with me, that was bad, but not extremely bad, I'm talking about our pseudo-relationships and her never telling me what and who she actually wanted.