issues
The last few days have been so so weird. On thurs last week I was asked to be our JCR president in halls next year, on sunday I was voted in, I spent a long time thurs night thinking about it and chatting to W, The prospect of doig it scares me as much as I want to becasue I have this huge fear I will fuck it up, It scares me I'm doing it for the wrong reasons and that it's becasue i need to prove a point, I'm scared that everyhting I do is a case o me pushing myself, in a kind of, 'if you can cope with this you're still doing ok if you can't you're a screw up again' kind of no win way. W said a lot of things that really got me that night, just that he seemed to know me so much better thenI know myself, it was that whole saying something you know but don't want to admit type thing.
Last night someone we know, well someone M know's quite well (v long story) ODed on E's - he took 12 of them, I mean god knows what he thought he was doing. But it has been a bit os a shock. M was really thrown by it but he's gonna be fine so M's feeling a lot better now. But there was something she hed to me, she went 'it makes me mad, he ddin't even think about me or how i'd feel wen he did it' and it surprised me a bit to think that ppl still think like that. I dunno i mean i can see her point, but It just really made me think and how hard it would be for me to ever OD knowing what it puts people through.
and then this morning we found out 2 ppl were involved in a car crash up in bromhill, it's been all over the yorkshire news all day, I'm so glad we didn't go for food last night wen we got back
*k*
Last night someone we know, well someone M know's quite well (v long story) ODed on E's - he took 12 of them, I mean god knows what he thought he was doing. But it has been a bit os a shock. M was really thrown by it but he's gonna be fine so M's feeling a lot better now. But there was something she hed to me, she went 'it makes me mad, he ddin't even think about me or how i'd feel wen he did it' and it surprised me a bit to think that ppl still think like that. I dunno i mean i can see her point, but It just really made me think and how hard it would be for me to ever OD knowing what it puts people through.
and then this morning we found out 2 ppl were involved in a car crash up in bromhill, it's been all over the yorkshire news all day, I'm so glad we didn't go for food last night wen we got back
*k*