I have heavy eyes
Last night I went to my aunt and uncle's renewal of vows with matt. They had this slide show that had all these pictures of them through the years, and its weird to see those pictures sometimes. They did so many things together and dressed so different than now, I know that we all grow up... but its weird to think sometimes how much we can grow up and change. It also made me think about the things I want to do when I get married. I want to ... experience so many things... and I want him with me. But as I think that I want to also ... have my own memories.
I am ... eighteen...moving away... graduating tomorrow...growing up...learning...being tired...most of all...i am Lisa.
I have been thinking..about thinking. lol. seriously i think i think far more than most people, maybe i get lost inside my own head, i have so many things that go on...its sometimes like i live two different lives. i wonder if matt saw me at school.. whould he still like me? the bossy side of lisa. i dont know.. i doubt many things very often. i guess its the way i grew up, its my scars. it wasnt easy for us.. but no need to get into further detail on that. I have been such a lucky girl in many aspects.. but very very unlucky in others. I guess thats life.
uggrrr i hate my computer sometimes!!!! i just had like another whole bunch of stuff written but of course i lost it!