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i want to have kids so that they can be positive entities in such a shitty world. people say, why would you want to bring someone into this? because my kids won't be assholes, thats why. they will hold doors for people and they wont eat animals because theyll know its wrong. theyll listen to regina spektor to go to sleep when theyre lonely and they wont have cable. and they wont suck. maybe i suck, but they wont. i want to have them now so they can get down to business. i cant do anything to fix all the things i thought i could fix. i hate international relations because it doesnt matter. what does matter is how a father of six wakes up every morning in iraq or palestine or afghanistan knowing that theres no hope, that he might not come home, that some jackass from kansas might come and shoot his dog in the face in front of his kids just because he can. all big problems are made up of tiny little problems that are so much more important than the big picture. five year olds dont cry when they hear on the news that the US has "secured baghdad" or is sending more troops overseas in an asinine attempt to complete iraqs inevitable downward spiral into failed statehood. they cry when their house gets blown to pieces and they cant go outside to play with their cousins anymore because theres a curfew and because they have no more cousins. i dont know how to fix those little problems but i want to, and because i cant i will have kids that will make someone elses little problems go away somehow.